i am fire

"Let’s close our eyes and not our minds
I’m fire-you’re the ocean
I’m energy-you’re the rhythm
Love is somewhere in between
What you believe and what you dream
I’m just trying to make you mine.."

-Teitur, You're The Ocean

A really good day

This is a warm beautiful sunday. I woke up right and I slept very soundly last night, unfortunately I couldn't recall any dreams. I listened to some of my fave songs, I found this one cool band, "Luce" (pronounced as loose), they have this cool song, I have the acoustic version which is really more fun because the trumpets and the instruments are more pronounced and more distinctively heard.

"Luce is an increasingly popular rock band based in San Francisco, California. The band was founded in 2000 by lead singer Tom Luce and keyboardist/producer Adam Rossi. The band also features drummer Steve Bowman (formerly of Counting Crows), bassist Larry Riggs and lead guitarist Dylan Brock." -wikipedia.org

A perfect beautiful day for me would be like really waking up on a breezy morning, I love the sunshine, matched with a really warm breakfast, a hot choco and of course a smile, from a loved one, would be nice.

are u alright?

well, I've noticed some really cool sounds for last weeks, I loved some really "feel good songs", a bit weird but just within my taste..

1. Lucinda Williams - "Are you alright? "--for all the loveones I miss.

2. Camera Obscura - "Lets Get Out Of this country" -our national anthem.

3. Maximo Park - "Fear of Falling "- I enjoy listening to this one. Its crazy singing but I love the lyrics!

4. Paolo Nutini - "Last Request" - my best hearbreaking song ever.

5. The Dears - "You and I are gang of Losers" - for someone I really like.

6. The Killers - "read my mind" - Love this 80's song revived by this cool band.

7. Bloc Party - "This modern love" and "So here we are" - love their songs!!, love the electronic interludes..

8. Wilco - "I am trying to break your heart" - Love the variation of instruments and tunes.

9. Jason Mraz - "Summer breeze" - a nice version of Seal and Crofts, nice guitars. I remember the summer breeze so much.

11. Jose Gonzalez - "Heartbeats" - one night to be confused..something I would sing before my flight.

12. Pink Nasty - "Burn" - her version of usher's burn, reminds me of good old stupid young days.

13. Fall out boy - "Sugar we're going down" - I usually hate some punk rock bands, because of the routine sounds they play..but this is one exceptional band, and for some strange reasons hehe..I love this song and never get tired of singing to it..its really fun.

14.Tori Amos - "Winter" - I know its an old song, but this one touches the inner sadness in me and takes my breath away.

15. Alexandre Desplat - "River Waltz"- yup, the most of my faves does not have any lyrics at all..its actually an instrumental solo piano version but its one of the moving music I've heard.

gesundheit!

Yesterday, while bumming around I saw another old movie..It was "Patch Adams", definitely one of my favorites. I liked the fact that depicts a biographical story about a man's struggle to change and somehow improve the healthcare system, by the use of humor and open communication between the patients and the healthcare staff of the hospital, doctors, nurses..etc etc. In the movie, Hunter "patch" Adams suggests why don't we label patients not as "patients" but as people and call them by their names. I even visited his own website and saw his Gesundheit Institute, I learned that most of the healthcare professionals were volunteers and they widely used "clowning" to help people and kids to ease a part of their illness, sometimes mostly aggravated by loneliness..I believed Dr. Adams probably believes that depression affects each person greatly as well as it affects one's reaction to recovery and that happiness does make a reaction from each of us.

Actually i think it does..sometimes, when i feel bored or moody or sad..I just have to go out and talk with people I care about and my heavy feelings suddenly lighten up, or whenever somebody special to me, calls me or asks about my day, I cheer up and it brings up all the smiles. i love it.

core of silence

When sadness fills the air, it makes it hard to breathe. All the smiles and cheers cannot make up for the tears that slowly bury you deep. Sometimes, you would rather choose to hide from the world you live just to ignore the monstrous image you have created from within. Bullshit is the love that you try to cover up for all the wounds that life has made u suffer, because it never takes away the real pains that leave the forever stigma in your own heart. Its amazing how others fail to see the other part of your dark realm because people like us never knew how to trust people anyway. Nobody wants to recognize imperfections because it destroys the beautiful perception people create to like what they see and to defy that maybe despite the cruel reality, there is real love and there are real people..but is there?.. Another bullshit fairytale from the dreamers of fantasy. Sometimes the world makes up a fool of people who are stupid enough to believe everything that is pulled up in front of them. Yet, we chose to believe because that is how reality works, that is how life works. Life stops for a moment, you just want to be tired of everything that keeps pulling you up and down. The only peace you wanted so bad, is out of your reach and is probably destined to be that way. The only salvation that keeps u awake at 3am every morning is nowhere to be found. The only feeling you never wanted to forget..slowly fades away.

Sundo (the coming) by Imago

"Kay tagal kong sinusuyod
ang buong mundo
Para hanapin,
para hanapin ka
Nilibot ang distrito
ng iyong lumbay
Pupulutin, pupulutin ka

Sinusundo kita,
Sinusundo...

Asahan mong mula ngayon
pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Asahan mong mula ngayon
pag-ibig ko’y sayo

Sa akin mo isabit
ang mga pangarap mo
Di kukulangin
ang ibibigay
Isuko ang kaba
tuluyan kang bumitaw
Ika’y manalig
Manalig ka..

Sinusundo kita
Sinusundo...

Asahan mong mula ngayon
pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Asahan mong mula ngayon
pag-ibig ko’y sayo

Handa na sa liwanag mo
Sinuyod ang buong mundo
Maghihintay sayo’ng sundo

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mahirap pala maghintay sa araw-araw. Gabi-gabi kang umaasa, at ang damdaming tila di napapagod sa kakaasa. Minsan nakakatuwa ang pagibig, di nagsasawa.

from the ice queen

"All this while I've been packing ice around my heart. How do I make it melt?"

--Ada, Cold Mountain.

todo bien!

well, i've been trying to learn spanish for god sakes..i dont know why. I just like to learn some new language. I love languages, in all kinds. But its devastatingly hard for me because I think i have a short memory span and I forget the last sentences or spanish words I've learned. Its a struggle actually. But its good to know it has the same words used in tagalog like..

" hora " and in tagalog "oras" means time.. or "como estas" is like kumusta.. means how are you..things like that. I love it. I just hope to learn more. maybe next year a new language would be a good idea..it just fascinates me being able to speak different languages its like, adapting part of a culture that u don't really have.

best way to be

"Everything is temporary anyway. .
...But I quit. I give up.
Nothing's good enough for anybody else it seems. ..
And being alone
is the best way to be.. "
--Edie Brickell, circle of friends

restless at 3 a.m.

i couldn't sleep last night, literally tossing and turning over and over again. I tried watching a movie, talking with a friend or even reading something. I felt restless and the fact is I wasnt even thinking of anything. Nothing at all.

I am a light-sleeper actually, I wake up in an instant when there is an alarm or I hear someone walking beside me.. Friends tend to appreciate that I wake up usually early or something, but actually the slightest movement at any rate..wakes me up. The weird thing about last night was that I felt relaxed and yet, I can only sleep for about an hour then I wake up again. Its crazy.

I felt bored for the past few weeks. Its like u tend to do a lot of things but then u actually feel bored. You try to think of other things but the same things keep coming up. Its hard when u deal with some stupid things in your life, you try not to be affected about it but then it does. You try so much to get away with it, but it consumes you more, and everytime you let it go, it comes back at you ten-fold.

Summer Breeze

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"Summer breeze makes me feel fine.."

10 things I hate about you..

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive me crazy with your stories.

I hate it when you're insensitive.

I hate your big dumb guts, and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right.

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

women are from venus

"i, with a deeper instinct, choose a man
who compels my strength,
who makes enormous demands on me,
who does not doubt my courage or my toughness,
who does not believe me naive or innocent,
who has the courage to treat me like a woman"

--- www.musicisart.blogspot.com

my Slow dance song

"..Did I drive you away?

I know what you'll say

You'll say, "Oh, someone we know"

But I promise you this

I'll always look out for you

That's what I'll do ...

and I saw ..sparks

"

--Coldplay.."SparKS"

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I really really love this song by coldplay .. its my ultimate fave right now..I love the interlude..I can just imagine slow dancing with somebody i like..with this song..I think this will blow my breath way..I'd love to close my eyes, wrap my arms around and dance with someone together with this song..its like time will stood still..just for a moment..and everything that bothers you will just remain silent for a while..together with someone who's special to u.

between nothings

"The odd thing about this form of communication is that you're more likely to talk about nothing than something. But I just want to say that all this nothing has meant more to me than so many somethings. " -meg ryan.

clinic duty!

Goofing around with AP.. pseudo boyfriend!


AP with mam tess!...bagay!


with PT intern Eve


with Britney!!


clinic eat out








badminton - mates, tess, Es and mary!

tell me now

"If you want me to want you..then say it straight..

Otherwise, i can be a little bit dumb to your emotions..

..I may not be the perfect girl of your dreams..

but if you take the risk with me..

no matter how difficult I could be..

..sometimes its worth the pain..

but, I can love you for the rest of your life.."

the week that was..

I had a busy week indeed..and the weather here in manila, is getting hotter everyday. Now its officially the start of the scourching hot summer, i couldn't stand wearing jeans everyday, sometimes i'd rather wear a dress..or i'd rather go out when its darker outside, its more chiller at night. But in the afternoon, I couldn't speak and move around..when the heat moves up. I've met a lot of people this week and I learned a lot. Mostly about the good life. I 've learned that life is really short, that it if u don't make the most of it, u will lose a lot of things and u will miss a lot of good things. I've learned that friendships bond people together. I've learned to take care of every decision that u make everyday, cause it affects a lot of things. I've learned to love the people who are with u now, because they will not be always around. I've learned the value of caring and patience..it changes lives..


me, miko, tess and glykes..


taking a break after a busy day with patients...!!


with nikki, at capitol medical center...


"I try to say goodbye..and I choke..I try to walk away and stumble..though i try to hide it, its clear my world..crumbles when u are not near.."

the first sign of hope

A picture began circulating in November. It should be "The Picture of the Year," or perhaps, "Picture of the Decade." It won't be. In fact, unless you obtained a copy of the US paper which published it, you probably would never have seen it.

The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by surgeon named Joseph Bruner.The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed from his mother's womb. Little Samuel's mother, Julie Armas, is an obstetrics nurse in Atlanta. She knew of Dr. Bruner's remarkable surgical procedure. Practicing at Vanderbilt University Medical Center in Nashville, he performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.

During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr. Bruner completed the surgery on Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully developed hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon's finger. Dr. Bruner was reported as saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment of his life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen, totally immobile. The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect clarity. The editors titled the picture, "Hand of Hope." The text explaining the picture begins, "The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas emerges from the mother's uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life."

Little Samuel's mother said they "wept for days" when they saw the picture.

She said, "The photo reminds us pregnancy isn't about disability or an illness, it's about a little person."

Samuel was born in perfect health, the operation 100 percent successful.
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"Before you were formed in the womb, I knew you." - God

apples and women

Women are like apples on trees, the
best ones are on the top of the tree.
The men don't want to reach for the
good ones because they are afraid of
falling and don't want to get hurt.
Instead, they just get the rotten
apples from the ground that aren't so
good but easy. So, the apples at the
top think something is wrong with them,
when in reality they are amazing.
They just have to wait for the right man to
come along, the one who's brave enough
to climb all the way to the top because
they value quality.”