yeah, i have given up trying to find any album of "The Shore" or "Magnet", and even if i devote all my free time finding it on the net, i wouldnt have a chance, but to buy it online, and it since its impractical to spend my money nowadays, i would just have to wait. But i guess i got lucky today, because there's a local indie band, UpDharmaDown, which is so cool. i just wanted one song from them, but apparently someone in the net, offered to upload the whole album. Gosh, it really made my day. Their album is so nice, a little rock, psychedelic and a bit jazzy. The female vocals is so smooth and so raw, just the way i like it, its something i would sing to guy i like. I especially like the song "oo", the lyrics are so direct, and the rhythm is cool. Its suprisingly interesting that a lot of local indie bands are surfacing with experimental tunes. I love this band!
is there a way to stop thinking? I mean literally. I've been doing a lot of thinking today. Lots of it. Mostly about my own plans for future, some are the things that i have to do, my plans for this summer, money to save, bills to pay (yeah i still have), personal worries, things i want to do, some guy i like and the things i will have to do tomorrow. sometimes, it can be exhausting. Like now, i really want to stop. I really wish there would be one moment where i could stop thinking about these stupid things and i could rest this brain of mine. It seems that in everything i do, i have these things in mind to keep. And one thing leds to another. I always worry about the future. I try to be always optimistic about it, but the pessimistic side of me always tries to appeal. What if my plans dont work and i get bummed for the rest of my life..what if i regret all the choices that i will make..gosh this makes me feel dizzy.
I've always believed life never gets bored for me. Nothing is ever simple to me. Everything is suppose to be complicated. I never got what i really wanted, except for material things, but the things that i need and i want, comes with so much effort to behold. There are only a few things that i have worked hard to earn, like reviewing for so any exams just to pass, giving up all ur vices just to get a license, saving up for a trip u've always dreamed of and waiting for someone u dont even know who. In this life, nothing seems so easy, and everyday the challenges begins to be more difficult. Probably it is a universal truth that when u really badly want something, in return u have to work a lot for it. But what if, if its someone u know u really want..but u know in ur heart, u may or may really not have that person, even if how much effort you put... Would u still go through with it..would still wait until u see some hope..would u still risk ur feelings or would u rather walk away and let it pass..until u find another one that would make seem ur emotions feel more rational....
