a man who hoped..

I went to cebu, but not for a vacation but to attend a solemn and simple funeral for my uncle.

I didn't know him that well, as all of my memories of him are mostly from childhood. He used to stay with us in our home and I remember that he was an ambitious man, who always wanted a better life for his family, a father who hoped to be better than he is and who wished all his daughters and sons to have a great future ahead.

I am close to Ate emily and kuya noli, and I felt their sadness in their hearts, although not spoken, but utterly felt. Tio Bernard would surely be missed. may your soul rest in God's hands.

cebu - the side trip

ALL PACKED UP! - I stayed in my cousin jayson's place





AT BASILICA MINOR DE SANTO NINO


WITH MR. GUITAR HEHE


FOOD STRIP BABES


MAGELLAN'S 481-YEAR-OLD CROSS





FAKE TOURISTS


WITH PRETTY COUSINS


WITH KATHERINE

WITH KUYA JV


WITH TIA MARICOR


WITH COUSIN TYRONE (SOON TO BE GR0OM)


COUSINS THALIE AND BINGBING


WITH TITA VANESSA

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Although I was in an official business trip, well it wouldn't hurt to side trip some of fave landmarks, in cebu. There are still places I wanted to see like the taoist temple, the tops, the fort san pedro, the plantation bay, ...and more. But then, the most fun part was spending time with the people, I haven't seen in many years, lola, my cousins and my tiyas..Gosh, a lot of time has passed. So little time, and so much to see!

" daghan salamat, sa inyung tanan, sa akong mga ig-agaw, lola at tia!"

we only live once

This weekend I learned that you cannot please everybody, some people would always try to find faults with you no matter how much you have accomplished in life, its always the small things that matter, not the big things..like your diploma, your license and even your dignity, instead the fact that you're not married and you're "pathetically single" matters a lot to some people, into which reasons, I don't care to understand.

It is always the big wrong decision or stupid choices that you make that matters, but never the time you made someone happy nor the moment you sacrificed just to be with the people you love. it is always my weakness for challenge and big mistakes that matters, but never the patience I give nor my struggle to live and understand life..it is always that gray things that matter, but never the colored ones.

Sometimes, its a bit discouraging and most of the time, it does hurt.

It hurts because life is never that easy, people would only see and are a bit quick to judge your life from the way they view it, they rely on what you show them, but no one really makes an effort to stop and listen to what you really have to say. Is anyone not allowed to commit several mistakes in life? should every person always make the perfect choices? Is life based on making your life the most perfect one? what is the pressure for... and who are we really competing with?

Sometimes, its better to step aside and just look back, how far have u come... rather than looking at sideways and trying to outsmart the person behind you.

i love you

may not be the man I wanted to
I may not be the king of wit
I may not know the things you need to know
I might not measure up quite yet

I may not have the grace of Fred Astaire
I may not have the mind of Jung
I cannot buy the things you need to have
But there is something you can't forget

I love you..

- "i love you", Saigon Kick

The One

The moment I first laid eyes on it, I knew it was the one for me

Nikon D80. No question about it. It does cost about 800 to 900 $ bucks, but its kinda worth if its for a long term use and the specs are really awesome. I'd love to travel with one of these. Someday, i'll have one ..maybe I'll save for it. maybe just maybe, wishes might come true.

after 40 years

"Where art thou, my love?"

imperfections

As we grow wiser, we loosen our grip on being perfect, in every way...we learn that it's more important to be human and happy, rather than be perfect but sad..

constant learning

well, i havent posted for the past few weeks..I just got tired from it all. just kidding. I just had a lot of things to do and some "tampos" with some special ones in my life.

this past few weeks, I have learned a lot..

I learned that sometimes, u have to get it all out..get all your emotions out and be honest about what u feel..

I learned that, we learn to trust people in stages..its better to grow with someone and learn from the past.

I learned to treasure every moment I have with all the people in my life, because the time u have with them, will never be repeated.

I learned to give a chance at myself, give change a chance, and the art of watching flowers bloom, watching people change without judging them and loving them for who they really are.

I learned that we slowly take risks in our lives, and no body will be sure if its right or wrong..the important thing is that u should never regret it.

I learned to always stop and look sideways, and notice small things, appreciate them..because life is made of small things that grow into big and beautiful ones.

I learned that there would always be something between two people, that only them can understand.

I promised myself to drown all the sadness and bitterness, I have kept before..and instead plant love and happiness..because they all only bring stupid headaches.

videoke nights!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RHEA!!!
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last June 7, we suprised rhea some pasta and fun company for her birthday, we sang videoke and we made landi to each other hahaha!! I never had a suprise bday before.. (that would be nice).. well life does start....at... dont worry, mareh, u look young, u feel young..we never grow old..=)

my own moments

"What greater thing is there for two human souls that to feel that they are joined... to strengthen each other... to be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories. " --George Eliot

Flores De Mayo

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every month of may, there is a procession held in the name of the mama mary, and here in the philippines the tradition goes on every year, there is a parade of young maidens with flowers, shiny dresses, handsome escorts and beautiful array of lights and music. I took these at the parade here at our place..Its fun to be young and pretty.