the smallest of things

"It's the pounding in the heart whenever you are gone without any trace
It's the breaking of the waves that were about to really carry someplace
It's a major minor detail
It's a solitary sequel to never knowing anything at all ..."

- Minor Detail, Sondre Lerche

(romeo and juliet painting by Ford Madox Brown)

I Love Manila at 36 degrees

before I even start writing right away, for anyone who simply finds this entry quite readable..the rest of it would be done both in tagalog and english.. just to make it more fun.

Today and for the last few days it has been like 36 degrees celsius here in manila..as in sobrang init ha. Init na talaga ng tanghali, its like literally being cooked on and steamed. And if u try walking out in the afternoon, omigod.. goodluck sayu! Its literally hot here, for the land of hot men and women, the atmosphere is full of it. In other countries, its probably like in different degrees, or siguro malamig pa sa ibang parts. Pero, no matter how humid it gets to be. I simply love phillippines, i really love it here.

most filipinos work abroad not just because the economy sucks (it still does) but then, its the low compensating salary and also some of us have this need for exploring the wonderful world around us. Its not bad to be curious, but its bad enough if u forget where u came from. Sabi nga nila, you cannot really love something unless u know where it came from. we cannot embrace other cultures and have them for ourselves, when we forget to define who we are. Pinoy tayu, actually the best goddamn lovable asians! hehe. I totally believe so, I mean filipinos have this rich monochromatic of cultures and everything comes with it. We all do not look alike, may chinita, may tisay, tisoy, jologs or whatever, but that's the beautiful part of it, di sya nakakasawa tingnan, eh caucasian countries tend to be boring sometimes, lahat sila puti, yun lang. We on the other hand, smell better than any other, I totally agree. filipino people love water so much, they bathe more than 4 times a day, well all because of the weather we have, but it does make us cleaner than any other, I've heard friends who comment about "weird smell" in china, mabaho daw yung mga tao..haha that's their opinion, not mine.

Of course, the food here in manila, is gosh I won't trade for anything. I am huge huge fan of adobo and sinagang and no other international dish matches that. Di ka ata pinoy, kung di mu trip yun. Before, whenever I commute from work, to and fro, its sometimes fun to watch people.. eveyday, we work, pagod..but filipinos seem to laugh it off.. There is something about the filipino trait of cheerfullness, its like there's a lot of things to be laughed about. I sometimes found it interesting di ba, minsan nakakatawa talaga yung ibang bagay, probably why the americans loves us so much, we laugh a lot. Europeans like the way we live, because its vibrant and we view life a bit differently, parang laging puno yung buhay natin, kahit sobrang daming kulang.

Sometimes, it hurts when people tell you how happy-go-lucky u are or how do u live a care-free attitude, and ask you to take life seriously..parang minsan ang sarap silang sagutin na.."OMIGOD, I AM TAKING LIFE SO SERIOUSLY, THE PROBLEM IS ..LIFE IS NOT TAKING ME SERIOUSLY". Loosen up your grip, ang init init na nga dito sa mundo, global warming and all, and you want to tighten up your life with negative views. Everyday people die, and who knows whose next..nobody knows..not even me or you, and yet for the time alloted for you to live, you waste your time by bashing other people's lives or competing for other things, when there is no competition anyway, there is no goal..the only way is to live and enjoy god's blessing, we forgive the heartaches and we love until all the buckets of tears dry up.

Sometimes, when every shit just beats me up..I get my headphones and I listen to music..its only way that prevents me from being insane. I wouldn't gain anything by being sad and hopeless..it only gets life boring.

the beauty of drew

I think it's important to give someone your heart and trust them and not be cynical. At the same time, I think being independent and strong and happy on your own and by yourself, it's probably what will make you a better lover.

"Because you'd be less needy. So I'm for both."

-Drew Barrymore

effects of indie rock

"Now there are a few ways you can give in to musical obsession. You can give in
suddenly and briefly – such as when, over a course of a few weeks or months, you
find yourself hooked on a particular album (especially a debut album or a
breakout album) and start talking up the artist to everyone you know; but then,
after seeing a boring live performance or hearing someone you don't respect gush
about the music, you just as suddenly denounce the artist as being annoying or
unoriginal.
Or you can give in sporadically. This might happen if you are
dealing unfamiliar real-world concerns, such as a new job or mouth to feed, when
you have neither the time nor the energy to satisfy the rigors of a full-blown
obsession; it might also be that your passion peaked years ago and is only at
the edges of your synapses now. But the mania is merely in remission, it is
still there, waiting to flare up: a release of a new bootleg, an anniversary of
a hero's death, a reunion tour, a simpatico comment by a bartender; a delivery
of killer weed."

-- JOHN SELLERS, Perfect from now on, HOw Indie Rock saved my life

no matter

Life is worth living, no matter how it sucks and everyone is worth living for, no matter how cruel they can be or no matter how stupid they can get..everybody deserves to live.

I've never been to Virginia, but they are students like us who have families of their own, young people who had dreams for themselves..

For all the students and people, who died in the virginia tech massacre, i offer prayers and this candle.

the most special things in our lives..

"The small details of your lives are what really matter in a
relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property , the money in
the bank, blah..blah..blah.
These create an environment conducive for
happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be
your lover's friend and do those little things for each other that
build intimacy. Someday, it will help to have a real happy marriage! "
- from a friend.

music slave

just few listening stuff

a bit of some

"I've spent so much time thinking about all the answers to the problem, that I forget what the problem actually was. " - Claire Colburn, Elizabethtown

sappy

Can I see you for just one night?

"love will get you down"

you make me lose my buttons oh yeah you make me spit
I don’t like my clothes anymore
we’re spending time and money yeah you’re colder than yourself
now we’re moving now we’re taking control

you make me lose my buttons oh yeah you make me spit
I don’t like my clothes anymore
you take me to New Orleans where you put me to the test
I know what my heart is for

you reach out for a blanket I say girl you’ve got something
I love how you wear it
now we’re spending time and money yeah you’re colder than yourself
now we’re moving now we’re taking control

Love will get you down!

my love's a laboratory
I set all my pets free
so baby just sleep with me

I make trips to the bathroom
and my friends dont have true grit
I am speckled like a leopard

put a lid on Shirley Temple
yeah you make sleek kills
yeah you travel you travel
you park me in your buick
you sing songs into my lips
well i am speckled like a leopard
just like a leopard

love will get you down
I love the way
you put me in the big house
I love the way
you put me in the big house

If I get there early will it be the right time
our heaven is just waiting so put your hand into mine
if I get too surly will you take that in stride
our boat is just there waiting so put your little hand in mine

and speak when you’re spoken of
catch up on your sleep girl
when you wear that body glove
you’re acting on initiative
and you’re spelling out your love
you shouldn’t be alone in there
you could be above ground

all i want is to be the very best for you
all i want is to do the very best for you

oh this time
there'll be no life of crime
don't rain on me tonight

circle around me now baby it’ll be ok
cause we all go downtown sometimes
somehow baby we’ll beat this mess
it’s the time fuck the surface to meet the specialist

time away from me
will get you down
I love the way you put me in the big house
I love the way you put me in the big house

If I get there early will it be the right time
our heaven is just waiting
so put your hand into mine
if I get too surly will you take that in stride
our boat is just there waiting
so put your little hand in mine

and speak when you’re spoken of
catch up on your sleep
when you wear that body glove
you’re acting on initiative
and you’re spelling out your love
you shouldn’t be alone in there
you could be above ground

If you're frustrated then go
If you're frustrated then go

honey bee, we should be through with this,
your packaged eyes, your vicious lips
You could be young, but you're out of touch
If this loves been done, then what's your rush?

I'm a specialist in hope and I'm registered to vote
Why don't you come into my barrio
we'll see if we can float
I'm a specialist in hope and I'm registered to vote
Why don't you come into my barrio
we'll see if you can float

-- Specialist, Interpol

marie antoinette...Enchanté !

I know it was already shown in theaters last year,
but I liked it and I saw it two days ago in DVD. Even the soundtrack was really good. I liked the part, when it was her birthday and she watched and waited for the sunrise. Of course, in history she very irresponsible as a queen of france, but i like how the movie depicted her vulnerability and childhood mischievousness, and I praise Sofia Coppola's set design for the movie, from the shoes to the the whole bedroom. I love the dresses, the hair and it was really cute..hahaha. Its a sweet movie, a very opposite from "300", hehe.

confessions of a big brother fan, Hehehe

smile!!



dude, where's my car?


its getting hot in here


Love it..


last shot!
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Lahat tayo mayroon pagkakaiba sa tingin pa lang ay makikita na
Iba’t ibang kagustuhan ngunit iisang patutunguhan
Gabay at pagmamahal ang hanap mo
Magbibigay ng halaga sa iyo
Nais mong ipakilala kung sino ka man talaga

Pinoy ikaw ay pinoy
Ipakita sa mundo
Kung ano ang kaya mo
Ibang-iba ang pinoy
Wag kang matatakot
Ipagmalaki mo pinoy ako
Pinoy tayo

‘Pakita mo ang tunay at kung sino ka
Mayro’n mang masama at maganda
Wala naman perpekto
Basta magpakatotoo oohh… oohh…
Gabay at pagmamahal ang hanap mo
Magbibigay ng halaga sa iyo
Nais mong ipakilala kung sino ka man talaga


Talagang ganyan ang buhay
Dapat ka nang masanay
Wala rin mangyayari
Kung laging nakikibagay
Ipakilala ang iyong sarili
Ano man sa iyo ay mangyayari
Ang lagi mong iisipin
Kayang kayang gawin

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well, this is a happiest day for me, no matter shallow i must be..but then, i dont give a damn, i had a moment and it was the best...superrrr!!!

.....

"You are so damn hard to love."

SnappedShots

This is me hanging out....


















"Kids at Heart"

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sometimes, when we forget the inner child within us..life tightens up, everything becomes so difficult..but if we remember what its like to be innocent and simple..we see things.. a little bit differently.

The Jessica Zafra Syndrome

"For one thing, I’ve never felt oppressed in my life. In my observation, people don’t discriminate against you because you’re female or gay; they do so because they think you’re poor and weak so you’re just going to sit there and take it.

I’ve been poor, but I never felt I was less of a person. Arrogance helps: My account may be empty but I’m smart. And if anyone says, If you’re so smart why ain’t you rich?, the answer is: Because I don’t measure my worth in currency, you dumb shit." - Jessica Zafra, Jessica Zafra website

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One of my ever ever favorite writers, she's a local fictional writer, who is so articulate and has the indeed the balls to write about what she thinks or what she hates. Since college, my friends used to tease me about her books, "Twisted" who had many versions, and I bought almost all of them. Some people she hates so much the world, as well as men or like she's bitter about most of the things..but I dont think so. Probably, she's just being herself. She's witty, I mean and her humor is really edgy but really smart. I trust her judgement so much that when she recommends a book or a movie, I know it has got to be good. I share her taste for music, cinema, books and people. She loves travelling, sometimes she does make a big deal of some other things..but then again, everyones does the same thing. I kept imagining myself of meeting her in person, and I would probably lose words to tell her anything. I am putting her on a pedestal, and is she dating anybody...that i refuse to understand. hahahaha

edge of insanity

Its hotter than usual here in manila and all over the philippines. The more its getting hot, the more i might be losing it.

There is nothing to do, well u can go to the beach with friends over and over the weekend, but no matter how many times u try to drown yourself with sea water, it wouldn't clog your brains out and make you forget that there is an issue in this life of mine. Sometimes, things can be so routine and life can be so boring, u have the same dull day always. Except for the moments u have, but then its always back to reality afterwards, like there's this momentary happiness. I don't know why I'm sulking when I just had a relaxing weekend with my favorite people. At the next minute, you are waking up then at the next minute, you are struggling to sleep again. People then say, get out more..I've been out. I've been always out like a million times, the funny thing is the more I stay out the more I crave to stay inside and be away from everyone.

I must be losing it. But then again, how can I be more neurotic when I am already are.

The Getaway

"Summer breeze, makes me feel fine..Blowing through the jasmine in my mind"




















"Feel the arms that reach out to hold meIn the evening when the day is through"