3-day rendezvous

8/18/80 OK TODAY IS MY BDAY, LET NO ONE RUIN THIS ONE. =)

"MALIGAYANG BATI"

TWO OF MY FAVORITE PERSONS


"ATE, WHERE'S THE PIZZA?"

"DO I LOOK TOO CUTE OR TOO UGLY"

JA AND ME

THE DEAF, THE MUTE AND THE BLIND.. A.K.A. HEAR, SPEAK AND SEE NO EVIL

DINNER AT SHABU-SHABU JAPANESE RESTO

AT THE SPA, ALABANG

AT YELLOW CAB MAKATI, WITH OFFICEMATE AND FRIENDS










THE BDAY WISH

Now i' m allergic with food and drinks..I have had enough of the weekend. I enjoyed this bday, I had a very relaxing one. All i needed was the closest people to me and great food..Maybe next bday, ill get to spend my bday with somebody else..hehe whoever that is.

my 26th year

gosh in a few hours and i will be another year older..and i often ask myself..has things changed?

well now, its a big YES. I think in some ways, i have changed, most of my friends cannot believe though, and me too actually. Well I admit i will never be perfect and will always have flaws, but i think i have improved my views among other things.

5 THINGS I HAVE LEARNED for the 26th time:

1. NEVER ASSUME. I have great relationships with my family but we also have our hang-ups and problems of communication, this year something happened between me and my brothers which strengthened our bond as siblings..we may often quarrel or wrestle with each other to death (hehe) but we have cultivated our care, love and respect with each other. I used to suspect them a lot, but sometimes there are things that no matter how obvious they are, they would always be NOT what they seemed to be..I have learned the art of asking and especially, the art of trusting.

2.PATIENCE. I have learned this word over and over again. Okay, i do have "sungit and toyo" issues and that's me, it happens when things go wrong and i do have a hard time controlling my anger, but now im trying to pacify myself , im trying to understand "difficult" people and i do try to wait more longer. =)

3. NEVER JUDGE. Its human instinct ..but to make a conclusion on anyone is a bit unfair to both parties involved. I trying to practice on trying to see different sides of different people.

4. BE COURTEOUS. Such opening doors, saying hi, saying thank you..small things..do mean a lot.

5.LOVE WITHOUT PRIDE. well this thing is an ongoing thing but im trying to learn it and without effort, it bends all my stupid pride. Its a hard and bumpy road but im learning and soon ill get there.

So am i more nice..well its not about change..its more about creating a positive outlook in life...I'm just a human being, pretty soon i'll get fed up with the way things are and ill be thinking of giving up on myself..but if i do have a strong positive side ..it would a more pleasant life to live.

A happy birthday to me. =)

the non-working office day episode

ME, DENNIS, CHRIS AND LEI, 56TH ROUND..HEHE


RAUL, BADETTE, LYN AND CRAZY ONE.


MY PARTNER IN CRIME -RUBY


AT THE ELEVATOR 55TH FLR, BEFORE CLOSING TIME


AFTER THE MOVIES, SMILE!


THE KWENTUHAN STAGE


THE PARTY PEEPS


TOPAK MEETS TOYO




ONE LAST SHOT, BEFORE WE SEPARATE WAYS

In love with the Moon

With the stillness of the night I long to see those sweet eyes
And feel the warmness of your skin while I hold your hand
I yearn to hear u whisper to me underneath these starry skies
If only for this one night, it is only you that I could want.

What kind of foolish prayer can I send the stars above,
For them to see, how much this heart has been longing
From counting all the moments, I would wish to have..
Will the moon, tell me when does the passion stop from trying?

Yet the nocturnal reality has always kept me waiting
Bringing forth more elation of desire for me to see,
the one that exhumes my ardent love, glowing and inspiring..
why has Fate has meant for this to be..

-"Enal" (FYI, its one of my highschool pen names, duh?hehe)
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Well when you're bored and you just want to pretend you're inlove with somebody (or am i??)..creativity just kicks in.
Actually, I used to write poems as well as collect them when i was in highschool, and i would always use my pen name "Enal" well it was a nickname given to me by a good friend, natalia, well i thought it was kinda boyish but i liked it anyway. I would even write poems about everyhting, for friends..of course most of the time for my crushes. Well, when you're young and you think you're inlove, you're into mushy things. I even remembered the last poem I did in Highschool, it got published for the public newspaper, well honestly it was supposed to be for a guy i had a big crush on, but i did want to admit it to my friends, because the guy was kinda ugly at that time, and my friends would laugh at me (well we were so immature then), so i asked my friend (who was the school editor at that time) to publish it as anonymously done. Unexpectedly, the poem created a big controversy. Evryone wanted to know who was behind the poem and who made it. They were so curious about its identity. well two years after highschool, i admitted to the guy that it was me..but when he asked me why i did it..I was stifled with an answer.."I dont know"..

I have always believed poems that are done wholeheartedly are the sweetest thing a woman can receive, (of course next to flowers)..I never had a poem given to me, that was originally done by a guy, I mean, there was once before, but that guy never meant what he said, probably he copied it from a Hallmark card or a poem collection (how pathetic is that? hehe) . I want a poem which a guy would literally pour his heart out, never mind if its not so great or it has grammatical errors, as long as its not just a few lines, i mean if it comes from the heart for once, it means probably more than anything. But of course, to wait for such a poem for me would take ..about..10 years? 50 years? these days, most guys don't even dare.

the Last Shot

last weekend, I shall never drink again..ever
I shall never even entertain the thought of it
I shall never consume alcohol when i can't really take it all
I shall never get drunk and pass out
I shall never be so drunk that i cannot even remember some impt events
i shall never get so drunk on a saturday night and sleep all sunday
I shall never leave my purse under the table to which
i totally forgot
I shall never get drunk and be involve in endless debate about
"destiny.."hehe
I promise to be sober..forever and ever..
I shall never drink again..tomorrow.

TRES AMIGOS..GLENN AND DJ WINDY LOOKS ON (TNx FOR MOONY)

MYRA AND CRAZY JAMES


ME AND BAM, "THE TANGGERRA" (ONE WHO POURS THE DRINKS, IN TAGALOG)

CELL LOOKS ON

HERE'S THE ENGINEER, WHO BELIVES IN ALL LOGIC

THE LOST KID

OKAY, ELENA THIS IS THE LAST SHOT OF RUM,

GOOD NIGHT FOLKS, IM SIGNING OUT!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUTER!...THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT..HEHE CHEERS, GIRL!

their conditional ceasefire

I've always hated watching the news. I can't even stand watching the CNN, seeing those politicians, most of whom makes a lot of money out of people's pockets, the damn taxes which u don't even know who really sustains from it..but then..

The other day, I stumbled upon this one documentary in the CNN..about the Israel-Lebanon conflict. There was a girl who was lying in a long chair and was hugging her father, and her legs were shaking, it was said that it is because another bomb or explosion is about to happen, her father says, she shivers at the mere thought of it. This shows how much they live in fear, a lot. I was deeply sad as well as confused, I mean what's the point of letting these people, such innocent lives be put to grave danger, just to prove how strong ur nation is, or how much bullets, missiles u can fire..I wonder is it worth it? There are already a number of children and women who have died, and yet nobody seems to care..all these leaders do, is just shook their heads ..and wonder why are they letting this happen..and don't fucking tell the others, that "it wasn't supposed to be this way"..was it? All the blood and screaming will never stop..even if they strike all the population out of each nation..will it really prove something. How can they sleep at night and not wonder, and not care about the lives, that they have wasted..
In the older years, history would prove..every nation would fight for its people and for its freedom..Is not the right to live..a form of freedom..or Has the world, gone so numb..we have already forgotten, the real meaning of everything?

the lunacy of shopping

i was out the whole day, because i needed to do a lot of things, and sometimes a whole day is just enough for any of it. I had to send something to my dad, develop some pictures, buy some special things, get some money in the bank (yeah, i needed to borrow some millions, hehehe). Report some complainst to my current telephone company, because they sucked at their service and needed to buy some few items. Whew! i havent even got through half of day, oh i needed to buy some books, cds..and oh i think i have to buy some shoes..or no..probably a dress..oh but...well, its as good as it gets. hehe.

Sons and Lovers

"She herself was opposite. She had a curious, receptive mind which found much pleasure and amusement in listening to other folk. She was clever in leading folk to talk. She loved ideas, and was considered very intellectual. What she liked most of all was an argument on religion or philosophy or politics with some educated man. This she did not often enjoy. So she always had people tell her about themselves, finding her pleasure so.." ...................................

This is an excerpt from the book, Sons and Lovers by D.H. Lawrence..whew! after 3 weeks u've finally finished it..it was like a journey from the old times, set in old england. The comparison between the old english culture and now is fascinating. Funny how some things or how people behaved or lived..does still stay in the present culture right now. I meant was the promiscuous dating, the "relationship" between friends which does seem to mean more to them yet they have trouble expressing it, the fact that most men still follow their mother's choice ..its really amazing. I liked this book, not because it spoke of a man's confused emotions toward the important women in his life..but because of how..emotions were discussed, I loved the author's way of writing and describing them..Its interesting that sometimes, unaware as we always are..we affect people..by the way we feel about them.

Let's make love and listen death from above - Cansei de Ser Sexy

Callin me high on the telephone
Came by plane all alone
Spend the afternoon making a speech
Speech made you nervous that you couldn't eat
You came to show your mad love
You came to tell it's not enough
Come and erase me and take me with you
Kiss me I'm drunk, and don't worry it's true
I want to show me how mad is your love
Come and attack me it's not gonna hurt
Fight me deny me if I fear when your close
Let's make love and listen death from above

You knew my ideas when they were in my head
They were my secret evening plans
Wine then bed then more then again, wine then bad then more then again
Run run run, to make your heart shake,
Kiss kiss kiss will make this earth quake
I'm gonna get what I'm willin to take
This gotta worth the miles you made
Come back I'll warm you up,
Make me breakfast, I'll make it up
You're so talented I'm in love
Let's make love and listen death from above

I'm back with a smack, and I'm ready to attack
Stare at my lips and I see they were wet
I know how you're doing by loonking at your pants
And this is how we call it a comeback..

Screaming your name on the microphone,
Going back home all alone
Listen to the tunes that you sent to me..
Listen to them good company
I want to show my mad love,
You have to know it's not enough
Come and complete me, stay here with me
This is all true, it's water I drink
I want you to show me how mad is your love
Come and attack me it's not gonna hurt
Fight me, deny me if I fear when you're close
Let's make love and listen death from above

download Cansei de Ser sexy-Lets Make Love And Listen Death From Above.mp3
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i first noticed this brazilian indie band from browsing some mp3 blogs in the net. I thought their name sounded french, and so eagerly enough i checked their song "let's make love.." I find it funky, a pop rock and psychedelic, a bit electronic..well i enjoyed it quite a lot. Its interesting to know, that at first, none of them even knew how to play any instruments except for their drummer.. and now I guess, they're probably gaining popularity. Now i have downloaded three songs from them, "Odio odio odio sorry"(another fave, sounded pretty different), "fuck off its not the only thing u have to show" (well Cansei does have a weird way of naming their songs, its mostly long and has sex connotations,) and lastly, "music is my hot hot sex" (love the chorus --MUSIC is my boyfriend..music is ...).

"sumbungan place"

Everybody wants to escape once in a while, away from anything ..sometimes u just want to watch the world go in limbo, while u step away from it all ..just for a day, an hour, a minute or even just for a second.

When i was just a teen, i have this secret place in our village..but its actually in the outermost part. Its actually almost a part of the next village. me and my closest friends used to drive there, whenever we felt like just hanging out or basically just watching the amazing view staring at us, whether its late at night or in a sunny afternoon. I remember all the moments ive spent there with friends and all the stories that probably only the wind, plants, grasses or my even the car has shared with us. Its like ur "sumbungan place", a place where u could just lash out and say anything u want to..a place where ur not judged, even if u think how wrong u are or how stupid u can get, and its a place where everything's quiet, and peaceful, like everything's listening to ur emotions, letting u know that somehow, in all these struggles u have..there's somebody listening to u..u just have to feel it. no its not an eerie kind of thing, there's nothing really special about the place, apart that its an overlooking view of the houses in Ayala aLabang, the buildings, and malls in alabang, somehow it makes u feel..that everything just stops for a while.

The last time I was there with a friend late at night, a patrolman told us that its not a safe place for anyone anymore especially at night because somebody was killed and raped at that place, and the body was left and dumped. Its strange..because ive always liked that place. It felt that we were not welcome to stay there anymore. Yet i respected the fact, that maybe some good things never last, although I still go there sometimes..especially a chilly night.

Ako Yung....... (I am the one who....)

Ako yung mahilig makinig ng maingay at kahit na ano, basta may lyrics, lalo na indie rock, alternative, pop, rnb and trance.
Ako yung tipo ng babaeng akala mu bading pero hindi naman.
Ako yung kaibigan mu na pwede mung sabihan ng kahit na anu, pero di pa ren magababago tingin ko sayu.
Ako ung kasama mu na tatawa ng malakas kahit corny yung joke, pero di kita iiwan sa ere.
Ako yung pwede mung utangan pag meron, pwede kita ilibre, pero uutangan din kita.hehe
Ako yung katabi mu na pag may mali sayu, sasabihin ko ng maayus pero pupurihin kita kapag may maganda or bago sayu, kase totoo yun.
Ako yung babaeng pwede mu date kahit saan wag mu lang ako babastusin.
Ako yung pwede mung ipakilala sa ibang tao, at asahan mu close ko na sila.
Ako yung tumatahimik pag galit at mainit ang ulo, pero parang abnormal parang sobrang saya.
Ako yung madaling magtiwala basta may tiwala sa akin.
Ako yung madaling yayain pero mahirap pag walang pera.
Ako yung masarap kausap lalo na pag lasing.
Ako yung matiyaga maghintay basta wag mu lang gagawing tanga.
Ako yung madaling maniwala basta babawiin mu pag muka na akong gago.
Ako yung taong madaling tumulong basta kaya ko.
Ako yung sensitive na tao na minsan nasasaktan din at umiiyak.
Ako yung pwede mung kasama buong araw maglakad basta kakain tayu pag gutom na ako.
Ako yung magsasabi sayu ng totoo pag lahat ng tao sa paligid mu ginagago ka na.
Ako yung babaeng pwedeng umintindi, magmahal ng malupit, basta di ako lolokohin.
eleNa

simple kind of life by Avid liongoren

Lets forget about
the stock market
or ruling the world
for the meanwhile
and apreciate
a glass of cold water
soft pillows
and a pleasant smile

Let's be amazed
with the fact
that the yellow sun rises
and not fuss about
promotions, 3 day sales
and winning Nobel prizes

Let's not worry
where the human race is headed
or if you will pass
tommorows test
We can't win the universe
some times "good enough"
is better than "best"

Stop chasing for that
millionaire husband
or beauty queen wife
talk to your dog
buy ice cream
eat cake
and see the sparkle
in a simple kind of life
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I got this from Mr. Avid's website.. liked this poem. Sometimes when life stresses u out and u get tired from all the talking as well as listening to every noise, u just want to stop and feel the air around u, have quietness even just for a second. For once, u just want to be numb from all the things that u feel and let go of all the fear and sadness that lies underneath. For once, u'd just want to get away from all of it..all u ever wanted..was something far simple..

If you Love ur Coffee....

THIS IS A NICE SIMPLE STORY SHARED BY A FRIEND..SOMETHING TO PONDER..

A group of alumni, highly established in their
careers, got together to visit their old university professor.
Conversation soon turned into complaints about
stress in work and life.
Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to
the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an
assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain
looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help
themselves to the coffee.

All the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the
professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking expensivecups
were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones.
While it is but normal for you to want only the best for
yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. Be assured
that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee in most cases, just
more expensive and in some cases even hides what we drink.
What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for
the best cups... and then began eyeing each other's cups. Now consider this: Life is the coffee, and the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, and the type of cup we have does not define, nor change the quality of Life we live. Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee God has provided us."

God brews the coffee, not the cups...enjoy your coffee.

Lakwatcheras

The number one "Lakwatchera" (i.e. one who loves to roam around)
-well i could have stayed home and watched the clouds turn from white to grey then white then grey then white then grey..oh gosh, it gets into me. So I watched them outside until stupid thoughts linger on my peanut brain


chaotic rains about to pour on an mid-afternoon in boulevard





THE THAI LUNCH
well, i had to be absent on such a lovely rainy ..oh sorry, not rainy but actually stormy tuesday morning , I had drive my mom on one of her important errands (yup, im such a good daughter, i should be hanged..hehe). we decided to eat lunch out at mall of asia, in roxas boulevard despite the heavy rains, well we were craving for a good lunch, we thought we'd check out the "Paluto" in asia mall. I liked the ambiance. I think its the way restaurants should be, they even had "outdoor ac", technically an evaporative type of air conditioning, hi tech ..huh.. but it was actually better. There were different stalls, each offering a different types of menu of asian cuisine, there was a filipino stall for grilled food, bbq, sinigang (stew), seafoods, japanese food, chinese food, indian..we chose thai food. I ordered red curry and my mom ordered Phad thai, some kind of noodles which had a sweet and sour tast, (yuck) but it was good though..maybe i wasnt just into it. But i did like the red curry (it wasnt as spicy as i thought it'd be) and the beef salt and pepper whatver,tasted nice. Hmm, the meal was cheap though..but I wasnt satisfied. I dont know, maybe i was expecting more of the thai cuisine..the rest of the menu were too common. That catch is, after the meal i had this weird taste left in my mouth.








we went to "Kultura" (i.e. means Culture) i was trying to find a nice antique gift for my dad, i was also trying to think of some gift for a friend..but had second thoughts. So i just bought something for my dad.





SNAPSHOTS
me and ja, last sunday..she spent at the night at our house..yup, i had another girl
sleeping at my place naman, gosh ..next time naman lalake na sana.

Of Canadian creeks and gay thing

MY friend JM at Tahimi creek looking ready to jump..=)

kayaks!!!

Tamihi Creek

Cultus Lake

Deer in the Highway



my friend JM, who's in canada right now, sent me this pics from his camping trip with kids. They are obviously fascinating. This was taken somewhere at the mountain part. He told me that the tent sites were supposedly organized and there are only designated areas for campers, which compared to my camping experiences here in manila, there are no such "designated" camp sites, i mean the rule is wherever that suits your tent and the area is not too rocky or a bit far from the cliff, its enough. Anyway, he told me its sunny there, a contradiction compared to the weather here, where it has been raining all weekend. I love the water and rainy season, but the effect of it, is the one that irritates me.. i get all too sleepy and lazy to go out of bed. JM tells me, the creek water is so clear and clean, its safe enough to drink it..i asked him if he tried to..and my crazy friend just laughed.

I told him the mountain area and creek part reminded me of the recent DVD ive watched, "Brokeback mountain", GOSH, i didnt expect it. I mean i knew it was about homosexuality, but the thing was, I didnt expect Jake Gylenhaal and Heath Ledger had acted on their parts intensely. I mean i have watched a couple of gay movies from pedro almodovar or from other directors.. but never saw two men who acted on their parts..so right. It wasnt just about being gay, its about two men who trusted each other and eventually had more beyond that friendship. As the movies tag line says.. "love is a force of nature", maybe love really does not choose anything or any person, when it does choose to exist. pretty deep huh. If i was in the Brokeback premiere night, i would have done a standing ovation. Its one of the passionate movies ive ever watched.

The Clientele - I can't seem to make you mine

In the silence of the garden
Moss arizing on the wind
And the beast is pondering love love love
'Till the rusty nail grow dim

(Chorus)
I can't seem to make you mine
Through the long and lonely night
And I try so hard, darling
But the crowd pulled you away
Through the rhythm and the rain
And the ivy coiled around my hand

So I lingered with the people
In the silent August glade
But the rain has brought the night
And the night has brought the rain


download I can't seem to make you mine.mp3

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well im a fan of the movie "the lake house" and i'm such as sucker for ultimate mushy indirect songs...i love this song.. i think its a better way of saying no matter how hard u try it, its funny how u cant seem to get this person u like most.