senti moment

I thought homesickness was a bit of like a joke. but I never thought it was like a disease that creeps with u at night and makes u really sad. I miss manila. I miss my mom, my brothers and my dog. I miss my friends who make me laugh. I miss the special kids who brighten up my day. Im thinking I have given up a lot so I have to make the most of it. The emotional wave is so great..so huge. Sometimes, its kinda difficult to handle. Sometimes, the pressure is intense and i am forced to accept things or situations..but sometimes, things dont really bother me. As long my mom inspires me and my friends are there, as long as the people care about me are there..i think i'll be ok. my inhibitions are stretched out. I am still suprised at what i am able to understand. I've stopped being cynical..and i handled life with more positive vibes and more love. At some point, i think about what i really feel now that i am here and i see things in a different point of view. It takes guts to live in a real world...lots and lots of it.