Lost

gosh..its been months since i last blogged.. many things have changed.. plenty.. a handful actually.

Im in Abu Dhabi now.. pretty interesting place.. but manila is still the best.. especially because the people i love most are there. I miss my mom so much it makes me cry every now and then..I miss the house..I miss my brothers..my dog..my room and my friends. I miss talking to my mom.. I miss her smell and her smile. I miss talking with my favorite people. I miss being free to roam.. being free to hangout in the evenings. I miss relaxing. I miss laughing with friends. I miss the noise. I miss everything that made me feel so good. I miss my mom a lot more than ever. its like a different part of my life has taken over.

Now I am seriously working as much as ever. Its like I am clinging too much to being busy at work just to forget how much lonely I miss home. I've met many interesting people.. people who share their lives with u. People who've risked everything to work here. Laarni is here (thank GOD). Along with work, I've met a very sweet guy who treats me with respect, laughs with me, enjoys with me and talks with sense. Our cultural differences makes the conversation endless. I learn things from him as well as he learn things from me. He's frank and honest. He patiently tries to understand me. He's not perfect but at least he's real. He keeps me sane and grounded around the madness and he is helping me to stop smoking...(yeah right..)

I want to make the most of my life here..I want to travel more.. read more books..watch more movies.. meet people from different places..learn the culture..cultivate my hobbies...learn new things..and be independent. I want to make most of my life while i'm young and single. in 3 years I'm gonna be 30.. I dont want to spend my life..controlled..sad and useless.. i dont want to forget home. I refuse to deny the people who love me most. I want to be free, interesting and open to love the most important people in my life.