Iba ang May pinagsamahan

Last Thursday, A good friend of mine had a going-away dinner with us. She's gonna be working in singapore, probably for a long time. The night was great and everybody had a fab time. Its been really really well. See u soon, apol!




Sunset AT MOA

STARTING THE NIGHT YOUNG


THE COMPLETE MEDICAL TEAM



SUPER FRIENDS


BOWLING TIME




MAKULETS




RUBY, JO, APOL, BENCH AND ME
July 26, 2007- Thursday -MOA- Pier One

"peter petrelli"

Park Your Car, Drop That Phone, sleep on the floor and Dream about me.

Anthems For A Seventeen Year-Old Girl

Back in my younger days, i had all these fantasies of all kinds. Dreams in all shapes and sizes. I used to say I would be married or engaged by my 27th year, hmm so far.. the worst. hehe.

I always dreamed of travelling a lot. I was a fan of great sceneries in many books. i loved photography so much. I dreamed of flower-covered mountains, serene seas, lush gardens of flowers of all kinds, and deep rain forests that hid many secrets. I dreamed of many paintings to see, a worldful of art to cherish.

Back then, dreams of younger girls like me, were so easy, so simple and so naive. unlike today...

Likeables.

whenever my day sucks...there are few things I like doing best and it really kicks me up...

I like sipping on a cold frap while walking the long overpass in paseo to greenbelt.

I like having a hot choco while sitting and watching the rain.

I like watching the raindrops up in my head during the night.

I like taking a short nap after reading my fave mag or book.

I like dancing with friends.

I like cuddling up on a warm blanket after a hot shower on a cold night.

I like having a hot shower or bath after an exhausting day in traffic.

I like walking out on a summer night and watching the sea or beach.

I like driving on a sunny afternoon to the hill side.

I like eating out in an open air resto.

I like watching the sunset, and watching the people pass by.

I like sitting by the car window and watching the outside.

I like being on top of the buliding the seeing the world under me.

I like cooking only for the people I care about.

I like being with someone I love when the whole day turns to be really screwed.

sometimes, I like being quiet.

honey

"You're the light when darkness takes me
You're the good when evil breakes me
You're the love that won't forsake me "
-Thomas Dybdahl, "Honey"

old times

My old friend Emil just came back from Dubai and we met again.

Back in college, i secretly so liked him. I don't remember anymore why that happened. All i know is that I good times with him.

But time changes everything. He still makes me laugh and I make him crazy.
He has a good life now and a very smart Gf. Now he's the one who has a crush on me. hehe.

I on the other hand, remained one of his bestfriends. Its better that way.
Besides, I have a new number one crush. not him, of course.

to someone special

Are you alive? real? or are you the most beautiful dream that I have had in years? are you an angel? or a figment of my imagination? someone i fabricated to fill the void? to soothe the pain? where did you find the time to listen? how could you understand?

You made me laugh when my heart was crying. you took me dancing when I couldn't take a step. You helped me set new goals when I was dying. You showed me dew drops and I had diamonds. You bought me wildflowers and I had orchids. You sang to me and angelic choirs burst forth in a song. You held my hand and my whole being loved you. You have me love and I belonged to you.

-chicken soup for the woman's soul

so far so good

why single women rock!

07-07-07

Out on a rainy saturday 07-07-07


lawrence, ruby and erik


seafood start


rainy afternoon in roxas seaside


with gurly and dang

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07-07-07, well i had a good dinner with old friends, then had attended a despedida and hanged out with my fave guy friends. So much for a lucky day indeed. well at least I got to sing three times in the videoke.

the special people

Everyday, I meet different people, in all shapes, in all sizes, in all ages and in all moods.
But there are "special ones", that always touch our hearts. The ones that usually talk to themselves while standing in an empty space, the ones that have bad tantrums whenever they get easily tired, the ones that move only when asked to, the ones that have feet and arms but doesnt know how to use them and the ones that live in their own world. sometimes they can be so funny, but beneath the smiles, always lies the deepest sad feelings.

They always touch mine. Before, i thought they are probably treated nicely because they are children and they would be pretty much be taken care of. but when they get older, life doesnt really get easy on them. especially when they are already my age. they cope up with life, but age doesnt cope up with them. they still act like 10 year olds when they have the anatomical features of a grown up adult, they still love coloring books when they should be working and they still smile shyly like kids when they should be seriously mature..but because they're different and for them, life is nothing special.

When I get to be with them, I wonder whats going on with their minds, what do they think of normal people like me, and what makes them tick? Sometimes, I realize above all the complaints I have in my life, maybe they should be the one who should have bigger problems. But they dont care. They just roam through life like kids. Nothing matters as long they get through the day. they become numb from all the emptiness they've collected. They become used to the unloving environment they've grown with. u can stare at them all day and they wouldnt know a thing.

At the end of the day, I breathe through this real world.
Everyday i try to understand the people I love and everyday I care about them, because I wouldnt want them to be numb and disappear in this real world, forgetting how much they've been always loved.

lovers out of time

"I know we're just like old friends
We just can't pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can't help but feel that something has been lost

But please you know you're just like me
Next time I promise we'll be ..
...Perfect
Perfect strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind

So far I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was...

Angel, you know it's not the end
We'll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on

So please, you always were so free
You'll see, I promise we'll be
Perfect
Perfect strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers while we sleep..."
- "Perfect", smashing pumpkins

damn heart

sampu sa panalangin ko ay maangkin
ang pusong matagal nang nasa hangin
sapagkat nabilang ko na ang araw at oras
kabaliwan itong aking paghihintay na wagas
ilang tanong na ba ang dumaan
inusisa ang siyang nararamdaman
paulit ulit na na tinatago
paulit ulit na binibigo

at
isinisigaw na bituin ang kanyang sukdulang pagsuko
sa buwan na kanyang iniibig ng buong puso
dahil wala na ren kwenta ang kanyang damdamin
sa taong napakahirap mahalin.

hard party

I cried today. I missed my favorite person. And there's nothing I can do about it.

Sometimes, the struggle apart from loneliness and disappointment is so devastating. The moment that you are partying hard all night and yet at the back of your mind, things float through. Stupid things that feed your emotions. And that beneath that moments of smiles you flash your friends, you feel damp inside. No matter how many beers u take and jokes u exchange with, at the end of it all, you wish you can spend this moment with someone far more better than your friend who gets drunk all the time. You wish that instead of walking yourself alone to the car, there would be someone who would be holding your hand and telling you look so great tonight.

But then at the end of night, u just sit there, tired of pretending there might be actually someone who might came along. so u melt away what u felt the night before with sleep.

a man who hoped..

I went to cebu, but not for a vacation but to attend a solemn and simple funeral for my uncle.

I didn't know him that well, as all of my memories of him are mostly from childhood. He used to stay with us in our home and I remember that he was an ambitious man, who always wanted a better life for his family, a father who hoped to be better than he is and who wished all his daughters and sons to have a great future ahead.

I am close to Ate emily and kuya noli, and I felt their sadness in their hearts, although not spoken, but utterly felt. Tio Bernard would surely be missed. may your soul rest in God's hands.

cebu - the side trip

ALL PACKED UP! - I stayed in my cousin jayson's place





AT BASILICA MINOR DE SANTO NINO


WITH MR. GUITAR HEHE


FOOD STRIP BABES


MAGELLAN'S 481-YEAR-OLD CROSS





FAKE TOURISTS


WITH PRETTY COUSINS


WITH KATHERINE

WITH KUYA JV


WITH TIA MARICOR


WITH COUSIN TYRONE (SOON TO BE GR0OM)


COUSINS THALIE AND BINGBING


WITH TITA VANESSA

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Although I was in an official business trip, well it wouldn't hurt to side trip some of fave landmarks, in cebu. There are still places I wanted to see like the taoist temple, the tops, the fort san pedro, the plantation bay, ...and more. But then, the most fun part was spending time with the people, I haven't seen in many years, lola, my cousins and my tiyas..Gosh, a lot of time has passed. So little time, and so much to see!

" daghan salamat, sa inyung tanan, sa akong mga ig-agaw, lola at tia!"

we only live once

This weekend I learned that you cannot please everybody, some people would always try to find faults with you no matter how much you have accomplished in life, its always the small things that matter, not the big things..like your diploma, your license and even your dignity, instead the fact that you're not married and you're "pathetically single" matters a lot to some people, into which reasons, I don't care to understand.

It is always the big wrong decision or stupid choices that you make that matters, but never the time you made someone happy nor the moment you sacrificed just to be with the people you love. it is always my weakness for challenge and big mistakes that matters, but never the patience I give nor my struggle to live and understand life..it is always that gray things that matter, but never the colored ones.

Sometimes, its a bit discouraging and most of the time, it does hurt.

It hurts because life is never that easy, people would only see and are a bit quick to judge your life from the way they view it, they rely on what you show them, but no one really makes an effort to stop and listen to what you really have to say. Is anyone not allowed to commit several mistakes in life? should every person always make the perfect choices? Is life based on making your life the most perfect one? what is the pressure for... and who are we really competing with?

Sometimes, its better to step aside and just look back, how far have u come... rather than looking at sideways and trying to outsmart the person behind you.

i love you

may not be the man I wanted to
I may not be the king of wit
I may not know the things you need to know
I might not measure up quite yet

I may not have the grace of Fred Astaire
I may not have the mind of Jung
I cannot buy the things you need to have
But there is something you can't forget

I love you..

- "i love you", Saigon Kick

The One

The moment I first laid eyes on it, I knew it was the one for me

Nikon D80. No question about it. It does cost about 800 to 900 $ bucks, but its kinda worth if its for a long term use and the specs are really awesome. I'd love to travel with one of these. Someday, i'll have one ..maybe I'll save for it. maybe just maybe, wishes might come true.

after 40 years

"Where art thou, my love?"

imperfections

As we grow wiser, we loosen our grip on being perfect, in every way...we learn that it's more important to be human and happy, rather than be perfect but sad..

constant learning

well, i havent posted for the past few weeks..I just got tired from it all. just kidding. I just had a lot of things to do and some "tampos" with some special ones in my life.

this past few weeks, I have learned a lot..

I learned that sometimes, u have to get it all out..get all your emotions out and be honest about what u feel..

I learned that, we learn to trust people in stages..its better to grow with someone and learn from the past.

I learned to treasure every moment I have with all the people in my life, because the time u have with them, will never be repeated.

I learned to give a chance at myself, give change a chance, and the art of watching flowers bloom, watching people change without judging them and loving them for who they really are.

I learned that we slowly take risks in our lives, and no body will be sure if its right or wrong..the important thing is that u should never regret it.

I learned to always stop and look sideways, and notice small things, appreciate them..because life is made of small things that grow into big and beautiful ones.

I learned that there would always be something between two people, that only them can understand.

I promised myself to drown all the sadness and bitterness, I have kept before..and instead plant love and happiness..because they all only bring stupid headaches.

videoke nights!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RHEA!!!
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last June 7, we suprised rhea some pasta and fun company for her birthday, we sang videoke and we made landi to each other hahaha!! I never had a suprise bday before.. (that would be nice).. well life does start....at... dont worry, mareh, u look young, u feel young..we never grow old..=)

my own moments

"What greater thing is there for two human souls that to feel that they are joined... to strengthen each other... to be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories. " --George Eliot