lifeless

Its been a busy week and a busy week ahead. meeting old friends, mingling with new friends, metting guys who like you, meeting guys u like, having a good time with the people u love and spending more time with your mom. But at the end of the day, after all the chaos of life that rushes in then sits out in the evening, I have all sorts of epiphany. I have proven that the more things change, the more they are the same. Sometimes when the person, friend of lover changes, u struggle to believe all the stupid reasons, but actually, they are just being normal, just being themselves. I have learned that relationships in whatever form, is such a struggle. It is hard to deal with people who never shows the same affection u have for them. I do not believe in "unexpressive" people, there is no such thing. If you like someone, you show it, you respect them, you hold on to them no matter what, you give the same value of attention that they give to you and you always try to remember them. You listen to them , when they feel sad and you try your best to see what kind of person they have become, because once they get tired...Once women get tired of a man, she likes..she suddenly stops. She walks away, without turning back..unless there is some kind of love that wishes her back..but when a woman gets tired of the man, she stands up, and leaves everything behind, everything she has worked for..everything she has cared for.

Because what good is there, when everything begins to be pointless. What good is it to wait for someone, who will never come for you and even forgets to remember nor care about you..Do u have to be reminded? for it only shows how little u think of me...Is it still worth it? Is it still worth the wait? Is this man, worth to be understood..? somewhere along the way, i might have made a mistake, this shouldn't have gotten so far, I should have quitted while I was at it. maybe, i am not needed with your life, and maybe i should not intend to be..we are of different worlds..different time zones and probably different paths.

You should have left when u had the chance. We should probably settle it, and accept the fact..you are there and I am here.. the line stays apart.

I sit and drink my hot cup of choco, and think.. maybe, it will change..but maybe its just the same.