Melancholyzed

when does one say..this is the point where you forget the person who caused you heartaches and pain? when do you say, that you've stopped thinking about the guy? when do you say, it is enough being a fool? when does the waiting end? when do you stop crying at night? when do you stop looking?....I fought with my heart a lot of times, but this one seems to struggle for long. You can never go through a wall that has been built since..I believed i have moved, but the heart does not seem to think so. I go through pains of forgetting evrything but at the end of each day, you only think of one person. Is he happy? does he think of you? does he care?.. the mind says, the answers are useless, yet one seems to be numb as well as dumb, still. at the back of your mind.. you wait. why? what for? i don't know. Why does it feel like evnthough you have the grip of reality altogether, still you don't seem to understand, what you have already seen or heard. I have accepted all facts, even the painful ones. When does the pain end and when does the sadness stops.