big girls don't cry

"I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket ...
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry"

--Fergie

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"You can say all
the things you want. You can blame me for everything. You can write all the
hurtful words you can think of now. You can be rude to me all you want. You can
stop and forget about me.

Because from now on, I
am letting you go. I am letting you escape.

It is the only
way. The only right way I can think of.

This melodramatic surge
of emotions is too much to handle. You've hurt me so much. You, of all people.
You did not gave me a chance to explain. You can say all the reasons you have,
but you can never ever change nor dictate the way i feel about you. You
have insulted my feelings.

The most painful things
you can say to a person you care about, is too enough for me to see what kind of
person you really are.

I can see no reason for
us to meet, anymore. It seems you have written these thoughts to purposedly hurt
me deeply, then I don't need to hear it in person. I don't need to hear it
anymore, from you. I cannot bear the fact that the person I cared so much about,
would tell me the most uncaring words, no one has ever said to
me.

I fell in love with you
because I felt it.
I did not conjure up a
notion or an imagination of you.
In fact, I can see
perfectly your flaws, your insecurities and the rude things you
do.
God knows, how much I've
tried to explain to myself all the stupid reasons. You're the one particular
thing, I could never explain.

I deserve somebody else.
Somebody who has emotions and man enough to confront them.
I never asked anything
big or too grandeur from you. I only wanted a little time to talk. Perhaps
something you don't understand.

you need someone else.
somebody real for you.

this is the last letter,
we will ever have. the only way to move on. "

Badoc, Ilocos norte, and Vigan town

this is the best shot of badoc.






































































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it was one of my memorable trips. I am so proud of my own heritage. Philippines and its hidden paradise.

Nothing can ever compare to that. next stop, pagudpud. hehe

Badoc, Ilocos norte, part one

my cousin, invited me to go home in her father's hometown province for important matters. it was spontaneous. and I loved it. travel to the north takes about 10 to 14 hours. meaning, long exhausting hours of travelling with nonstop sightseeing. I have been hiking and camping before, but no astounding sights as this.

I have never seen the literal "heaven on earth" place. its like being on a valley enclosed by mountains. no noise. just you and nature. simple living. simple things matter. and u can breathe air as much as u can. the cold rush of stream makes u forget for a while apart from the busy life in manila. in the morning, the thick fog clouds claim the land. the climate is serene.

There is a mystifying peace that surrounds the place for all those who are foreign to the place.

These are the lush rice fields of badoc, ilocos norte and the cold stream from the mountain.













































































i never held my breath before..and i've never seen beauty like this. the camera only captures the small picture actually, but what is visible to my eyes, is unmistakbly so real.. its like heaven painted a big canvas of nature.