just go

"Look -- I'm a fairly level-
headed bloke. Not often in and out of
love. But...can I just say 'no' to your kind
request and leave it at that?

With you, I'm in real danger. It
took like a perfect situation, apart
from that foul temper of yours -- but my
relatively inexperienced heart would,
I fear, not recover if I was once again
... cast aside, which I would
absolutely expect to be... You'd go and I'd be...
well, buggered, basically. "

--Hugh Grant to Julia Roberts,Notting Hilll

stupid girls

maybe..if i acted like that..Love Pink and this vid..hahahahah

Kong Hei Fat Choi 2007

Your sign is Monkey.

2007 brings a year of increased prospects for the Monkey. There are many happy events this year, and most will be connected to you, in some way. This is the year that all Monkeys will take some time for reliving their past.

Your reading:2007 brings a year of increased prospects for the Monkey. There are many happy events this year, and most will be connected to you, in some way.

This is the year that all Monkeys will take some time for reliving their past. It is necessary to confront your past, however, do not fear this! It is a lucky year for the Monkey, and while your past will play an important role in the coming year, it is not something to be afraid of. Rather than a battle resurfacing, or an old pain, revel in the recollections of your past, and allow sweet memories to re-emerge.

Your constellation has several lucky stars in residence this year. 'Star Fu Xing', 'Star Tian De', and 'Star Fu De' are all there, and they combine their powers to provide you assistance and to establish your good fortune. In addition, the major star of relationships, 'Star Zheng-Tao-Hua', arrives to bring an extra splendor to the mix. While the star of gossip, 'Star Juan She', is also in residence, do not fear! Instead of bringing trouble, this star is in a lucky place of vitality. This means, rather than mean-spirited gossip or fighting, lively and productive discussions will abound!

You may gain a bit of recognition, honor, or other notice by the reappearance of a project from your past. This may arrive through some type of display, speech, or another form of public observation. Conversely, the unlucky stars 'Star Jie Sha' and 'Star Pi Ma' are residing in the same Palace with 'Star Juan She', but don't let this worry you, Monkey! These stars will help you be prepared for unfortunate possibilities in the year, rather than strike you with bad luck. You will see little help from influential people in this Year of the Pig.

In order to be sure of your good fortune in 2007, you need to think any important decision you may have completely through. You will need to allow the natural pattern of life to play out, without force. If a friend is ready to move on, you must let them. If your romantic partner is thinking of leaving, you must trust in fate.

Be positive and accepting in these changes within your personal relationships. If you negatively try to change someone's decisions, you will only bring sadness to all involved. However, if you are positive and accepting, and 'go with the flow,' all will work out in the end.
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LEO for 2007

The best way to recognize a "Leo" is by the person's overpowering speaking ability. The ruling planet of "Leo" is sun. "Sun" has a towering personality. Nothing can stand to diminish the mere existence of the sun. "Leos" are generous people. Leos are the king of the jungle and they love to be so. They assume the character of a king in a social gathering. Leos are extrovert. They are creative and love flattery.

Leos" are believed to have unrealistic expectations from their partners. A "Leo" will allure you to come in his den, but once you are in, he might even intrude your thoughts. They have a warm heart. They get upset sometime over simple and trifle issues. The darkest side of a Leo person is his ego. Leo Horoscope, 2007 will be all work and no play. Being a fixed sign often the changes of a "Leo" person is permanent. They are little rigid persons. "Leos" are too ambitious. They want themselves to be on top. They are very good leaders. They are great in organizing and planning. The finances will be a little tight. So "Leos" beware! Do not go over the top with parties and brunches. This is the right time for investment. If you sow the seeds of your finance now you will definitely reap the return in the next couple of years.

Think, before you make a decision in the professional life. Lucky numbers for the lions are one, four and six. The color of the sun, i.e., "orange" is a great color of the "Leos". Please try not being arrogant; this might lead you in trouble. Restrain yourself from being opinionated. Take time before making any judgment.

Leo Horoscope, 2007 reveals that romance will be on cards but beware do not rush. Decisions of lifetime should not be taken in a hurry. Wait for couple of months or so till the time is favorable.

Take care of your health. A little exercise and regulated diet will help you to stay healthy. Leos tend to have "circulatory" and "spinal chord problems. Take care of your health before it is too late. There will be spiritual gains and knowledge will be the key word for all Leos in the year of 2007. You will be loyal throughout the year towards yourself more than anything else. Work should be the mantra of the year 2007. Do not be lazy as this might take you in deep troubled waters.

no.1 skeptic

"From the very first time I rest my eyes on you,

My heart said follow through

But I know now that I'm way down on your line

But the waiting feeling's fine... "

Do u know what its like to feel for someone and no explanations can amount to defend your exact emotions..

No logic...

no scientific facts...

and u do not know any longer know what's really real....u try to shrug it off again and again. U tell urself its not possible..how could it be..especially..when..

U tell urself, sometimes emotions play tricks on us..love is based when seen and felt personally..how do u explain when u think about this person over and over again..maybe i'm dumb at this..or i'm being stupid..its probably nothing..u tell urself..every day.

i'm in love..and no matter how deeper it gets..and now matter how my brain battles my emotions..and not even logical reasons make it more manageable..i still can't figure it out..maybe my heart will break again..maybe time will make me forget..maybe its not right..or too soon..the only truth i have is that..i need this person..and life wouldn't just be the same without him..

seven, eight, nine and ten

the sun, the sky
and nature are with her.

As a true lady, she made
every effort to look her best.

Dressed in white for freshness,

lipstick for the occasion,
eyebrows shaped.

But none of that black
which lengthens the eyelashes.

She knows that tears
can make a mess of it.

"He knows about your visit.

We said a young girl
he'd dearly loved was coming here. "

He asked your name
and found it very beautiful.

He's in the garden.
He's waiting for you. ................................ "mathilde"- a very long engagement

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This film is by Jean-Pierre Jeunet and starring Audrey Tautou..and I love this movie..its about a woman waiting and hoping, as she painstakingly finds her fiance, as they were separated by war..and tries to discover if he is still alive.

ruby's tambayan

I love hanging out at ruby's place.. Its not posh, but I don't care..the important thing is I'm with someone I love being with..I mean ever since we met after college..I swing by her place every time. I remember my dorm days. Sometimes, we just drink together just like old people, we talk about stuff..men, career, family and future plans. I love Ruby, she's not perfect, but she's one of my trusted friends, she doesn't judge you or she doesnt think narrow of people..but she listens and tells whats on her mind, bluntly. Its crazy that we exchange ideas, and sometimes think we give each other the best advices but never on our own..but we kinda have slight different tastes on music, movies, fashion, clothes..but we wear the same perfume, we love the beach, and we are both inlove with men who have same zodiac signs..hahaha.

This afternoon, we bought some grilled food and a couple of beers..probably just six, well we are girls and we love hanging out away from everything.

I sat out in this lazy afternoon, because ruby was still finishing her laundry..I was dead tired from the long day i had and she forgot to take a bath, so I sit out and wait..and enjoy the sunset outside.

my post valentines dates

I met my old buddies in highschool..well actually, i have a big circle of old friends back then but some of them already have kids and married, or some have gone abroad..so most of us left living here in manila, are indeed enjoying the good times. we went to giligans first for dinner then headed to seattles, for cakes and nonsense..hehe. I miss my college friends too, i havent been in touch with them, but we have been planning to meet since last year..i hope we do..Its nice to get back with friends u trust for so long..they just know u so much.











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six

" Let me let you go..."

--kate, The Lake House

my own guru

SULTAN'S BELIEFS

1. predictably UNPREDICTABLE - which makes anyone on guard all the time. hehehe

2. to be calm, cool and collected is what i intend to project in any given situation whether there is already a rational cause to be hysterical.

3. I always think to be wise is to be feared more than to be intelligent and that Experience is the best teacher.

4. There's a world of difference between being vain and just taking care of yourself. To take care of one's self is a lucid manifestation of a purpose driven life.

5. To commit to someone is to not to be loyal alone but to be faithful as well. Im both.

6. Never throw stones when we live in glasshouses. Each person has his own story to tell and has every reason for such story.

7. What goes around, comes around. I invest in karma.

8. The best things in the world are free....like SMILING most of the time, sharing your blessings, making others laugh at their downest, sleeping long hours...

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well we all have our own "gurus" in this life..and I have mine. Edmond Sultan is one of my professors during my physiotherapist licensure review (which i passed, thanks to mega hard work). He was really a very effective person. I mean i have never met somebody who literally gets your attention and affects your well-being. He motivates students and he has a strong encouragement for people. He's not perfect but I'm just in all awes to him. I remember I would really enjoy attending his classes and remembering his famous lines (nada, zilch and void..) hehe. He shows up early and he smells really good, (i know that for a fact because I always sit upfront). He shows very effective ways of remembering things and the best part is, he has such great sense of humor.

FIVE

yesterday morning, before a pending interview, I went to baywalk, since it was walking distance from the place..and it was such a relaxing moment. A lot of people were around, doing their usual things..two guys sitting beside me were talking about their sentiments and complaints about their job and life, on my right..there was a couple, one pinay and other an american, they had a cute baby, and from the other side of the row, there were a couple of men, fishermen perhaps who were talking about political issues, their toilet humor and of course the catch they had. Everybody was passing me by, and I was noticing everything from my own view. I was like the audience watching surroundings, smiling and looking at them. I was actually alone from the world and I watched as the calm sea unfolds. I just realized how beautiful manila is in the morning, like how fresh everything is, how warm people are and how its nice to belong here. As I stare blankly at the sea, I wonder..what do I really want?

FOUR

"Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together, babe
But we're not
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near"

--Macy Gray I "I Try"

THREE

"Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the three R's... relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't want to know. "

- meredith grey, Grey's anatomy

two

If you love someone and you're scared to hurt them as much it hurts you..face it. Its reality, no matter how much there's a lot of pain to gain but that is part of life..no one gets out of this world alive. Everyone cries for a reason, everybody knows what its like to be hurt and be taken for granted. Its nothing new. If you know that to yourself, you are tired, you should tell the other person who adores you. Its not about learning to break somebody's heart in an easy way.. because the fact is ..there's really no easy way. You'll eventually make them cry and depressed..but does anyone have a choice? If you love someone, and you know you have to go..say it. Say it like it will really hurt them a lot..because wounds that are cured

early..heal best.

One

Girl: Why did u leave me without saying anything?

Boy: Because it would have been much easier on your part. I guess I thought it would be more less painful for both of us to leave things as they are.

Girl: And you think I should forgive you?..You've got to be kidding me. How dare you decide what makes things less painful for me..you don't even know me. I care about you, probably more than any guy I've met and you think that's fucking easy? Oh come on, every night I battle with my pride, because I don't think its right for me to fall in love you..but I am and then u suddenly leave?

Boy: I'm sorry I got scared..I did not know how to react, I like you but .. I don't know if this is real..You probably deserve a better guy than me.



Girl: No..do not ever ever say what I should deserve..I like you even with your imperfections, yes I struggle with our situation..and yes, I do act stupid..but I never gave up..I'm still here..even if you made me wait..but now I know, how ungrateful you are..you're just like other men, who don't even have the balls to face their own emotions..too coward to know what its like to love..

Boy: You know, I still have feelings for you and maybe we can work things out this time..

Girl: wake up, this is the real world, not everybody gets second chances..I have moved on..Now, its my turn to leave..I hope our paths never cross again.
--November 2004

countdown to 19

I want

You.

For a whole lot of reasons
that don't make any sense to me.

--"Hitch", Will Smith

No, He's Probably Not That Into You

Cosmopolitan Magazine has a nifty column that provides relationship advice to women from the perspective of a man called Ask A Guy. A most recent column featured the question of a reader wanting to know whether a guy was interested in her.

While, the inner workings of the male psyche may be a mystery to women, situations such as these are often self explanatory. It doesn’t take a guy or even your girlfriends to tell you that he doesn’t like you. The odds are if you have to ask, he probably just isn’t that into you to paraphrase Greg Behrendt.

In case your many years of reading Cosmopolitan Magazine, has not helped with your relationship knowledge, below are a few tips for discerning your would be paramours interest.

He Has Not Called You

If you gave him your telephone number, your email address, your pager number and you have not heard from him, he does not wish to speak with you. No matter how often you pick up the telephone to check the dial tone, as long as the phone bill has been paid everything is in working order. If spam continues to clutter your inbox, but no love not from your would be sweetie, your email is fine, he just hasn’t hit the send button.

You Must Always Call Him

This tip is an addendum to the aforementioned tip. If whenever you call he says that he is busy and, he didn’t have time to call you read the writing on the wall. There are 24 hours in a day, and if a man is interested he will make time to call you. If it’s at work, before, in the car before work, or in bed before he goes to sleep at night. Trust and believe that if he is really into you, there is nothing sweeter than the sound of your voice at any time of the day.

If you have called and left a message or two, or ten, and he has not returned your call, assume that he doesn’t know what a catch you are and simply move on.

He Has Not Mentioned Commitment

Unfortunately, many women make the mistake of becoming intimate with a man in hopes of turning a physical relationship into a more permanent and serious endeavor. If the word commitment has not been mentioned, take it as an indication that it has not been discussed for a reason.

The best thing to do would be to take some time, and learn from the experience. Read Cosmopolitan, hang out with friends, go to the gym. In short, anything but call him. That 2 months wasted on him, is 2 months that you will never get back. It is also a time when you could be meeting the real man of your dreams.
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yeah, get over it..I should.

sto. nino pyesta, muntinlupa

my mom and I went to santo nino,muntinlupa to attend mass, the area was in a festive mood, my friend belle, lives in the area. I used to remember back in college, every third of February , me and our group for friends visit the pyesta there, the decorations and the endless drum rolls, the traditional food..and of course, the endless funny conversations with different people.
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jeep trip

During my dorm days, the trip to the shopping malls, to the supermarket or to the LRT transit is by the jeepney. You ride different jeeps everyday for the rest of your life. Here in manila, everybody is used to it and actually for me, its a better mode of transportation because its more spacious and not too dizzying, although now I drive the car, I think the jeepney drivers are the worst drivers that tops all the drivers from all over the world. They are aggresive drivers of the road, I mean their attitude is like.."Sorry, I didn't see yah, have to cut you"..and if you're stupid enough to bump with them, you won't get money at all..because they would reason out that they're just drivers and they're sorry they can't pay the damage. Anyway, I still ride the jeep, when I would go outdoors, I enjoy it. Yesterday, I rode the jeep from makati to LRT buendia, there was a woman whom I think was a bit crazy, well she was shouting to some guy who wasn't doing anything to her, while me and the other passengers were a bit alarmed because she was banging the sides of the jeep, like she was mad. The worse jeepney rides I have, is when one of the passengers is drunk, I get that a lot. One time late in the evening, while going home from work, there was one guy who smelled of gin, and he kept looking at me and I was a bit nervous because he might do something weird and I was already too tired from work at that time, luckily he got off before me. Sometimes, I enjoy the trip because u ride with different people from all walks of life, everybody is thinking about something, or others keep on texting or sometimes, others are tired from work or sometimes someone is eating something,but most of all what makes it so cool is that, there's no jeep in other countries such as this one..its only here in manila, and I'm glad I ride it everyday.

the waiting game

"...And the Lady wants to know
She wants to know the reason
Got to know the reason why.
This man has got to go
This man is always leavin'
How he hates to say goodbye.
But what she doesn't know
Is there really is no reason
There really is no reason why. .."

- "The Lady wants to know, sitti cafe bossa"

paraiso

Sunset at BORACAY.

Gosh, I missed boracay, its been since 2years ago, since I last set foot there, it was always always a paradise. A friend of mine has free discounted travel tickets to fly there and I'm so thrilled to get there this coming month (hopefully!). I remember the serene waters and delicious seafood, until now I cannot forget the lobster and crab sauce there. And the beach..is amazing, the sand and all. When you're in bora, its like being in a separate place, away from all the hype and all..you can just relax and think nothing else. And one more thing, BOra is known for having an interesting night life, probably more fun than puerto galera, well of course aside from the cute guys and all..haha..well the thing is, the boracay peeps are more..adventurous when it comes to partying. Can't wait..