me and Janice

College life will never be the same with janice. I knew Janice way back since Lasalle days. well we got close because she was as talkative and as loud as me, we talk about a lot. but she's far demanding and more outspoken than me perhaps why we get along, she's sometimes dominant and im not. when was already in Fatima college, we had dorms right next to each other. I remember i would borrow the iron from them or sometimes when i am too lazy to cook breakfast or lunch i would drop by her dorm, and be a leech to eat breakfast or lunch with her and her dormates, and they never seem to mind, sometimes they would even insist at times.hehe. well janice is like my...

1. my mom - well she does act like that. whenever i would have problems in any areas of my life, she would be there. she would listen and she would get mad everytime i would cry a lot. she doesnt judge me for all the stupid mistakes i do or whenever i insist on something. but she does get mad whenever she thinks im slacking from classes since i would go partying every night with friends or have new friends quickly,without even getting to know them, she hates it when i do that.

2. my sister - she likes my new lipstick, earring, belt, or whatever, she shares my passion for everything except for music, she isnt into hardcore types, but she likes movies as well as books. she thinks im smart at times but stupid when it comes to my own love life. well, she doesnt quite approve the men i date, probably because all of them never lasted. she knows the food i love or color i love to wear. she knows what to expect of me.

3. my old good friend - she serves as my diary of thought, although not updated at times but knows every secret, every heartache and every stupid thing about me. its her janice.

third boring night

On this 3rd night of boring night shift job, well i promise not to sleep. i have been getting myself drunk with lots of coffee, just to keep both eyes opened wide. the other night, i was asleep the whole shift, well whose to blame there is not a single job to be done in the office. it just makes this routine work, so so boring. There is not much to do but to write things, well whatever...
anyway a while ago, i saw the old pics when i was in my internship days as a physical therapist. It was funny how things have changed. well for most obvious reasons, i have grown my hair very very long. probably why most of my friends back in college do have difficulty recognizing me in public, since before i had a boy's cut and was so boyish in style. i would always be mistaken as gay or lesbian, hehe well due to my ''colorful friends" back then. sadly most of them are in abroad already. I met a lot of interesting people at that time, and i was never "maarte", as i have been always judged as like that then as they grew to know me better, most of them realized, i was the most unlikely person they have ever known. I was always misjudged and u can really see how people treat u because they think u are what they expect u because of how u dress, act or even talk. but at some point, they do realize how wrong they are, i always laugh about it because i really dont care. i mean if they say i might be this or that, hell do i care. The only people i care enough are the ones whom i will only explain things about me, i've always believed i dont have to prove myself to anyone. That's why i know how it feels to be judged, and i always try to see the beautiful things that a person has, it is what he or she does best, that counts, not the mistakes.

dont take it personal

"It's just one of them days, when I wanna be all alone , when I gotta be all alone , and you think I treat you wrong.
I wanna take some time out to think things through I know it always feels like I'm doing you wrong but I'm so in love with you...so understand that I'm only in love, you're the only one I need..so have no thought that I want to leave and trust me please.

Just one of them days, that a girl goes through when I'm angry inside and i don't want to take it out on you.
I find myself in misery and that ain't cool. I really want to be with you the whole way through But the way you make me feel inside keeps me confused As I swing back from mood to mood it's not because of you I never want you to be insecure, so won't you understand that I'm only in love..."

-dont take it personal, "monica"

MY top fives

questionnaire sent by sharon and ann green:

ANSWER:

my top fives

top five "dream" jobs:
o1. TRAVELER/RESEARCHER/REPORTER FOR DISCOVERY CHANNEL TRAVEL/LIVING
02. RESTAURANT OWNER
o3. PAINTER/PHOTOGRAPHER
04. MOVIE CRITIC/WRITER
o5. CHIEF PHYSICAL THERAPIST

five films I (love to) watch over and over again:
o1. EVER AFTER
02. SLEEPLESS IN SEATTLE
o3. THE NOTEBOOK
o4. LORD OF THE RINGS 1,2,3
o5. BEFORE SUNSET

top five songs I can listen to again and again:
o1. CRASH INTO ME -DAVE MATTHEWS BAND (EVEN IF I PLAY IT ALL DAY LONG)
o2. CHUNGKING ALBUM
o3. MAGNET ALBUM
04. SLEEPS WITH BUTTERFLIES - TORI AMOS
o5. HOME - DISHWALLA


top five reasons to watch television:
o1. SCAN FOR MOVIES
02. DISCOVERY CHANNEL
o3. TO FALL ASLEEP
04. NEWS
o5. TO PASS TIME

top five places i'd want to visit by the age of thirty-
five:
o1. SPAIN
o2. FRENCH POLYNESIA
o3. BRAZIL
o4. CALIFORNIA USA
o5. ITALY

top five FOODS:
o1. SEAFOOD
o2. INDIAN SPICY FOOD
o3. PASTA
o4. CAKES/PASTRIES
o5. CHOCOLATE

top five beverages:
o1. APPLE JUICE
o2. HOT CHOCO
o3. WATERMELON SHAKE
o4. ICE CREAM SUNDAES!!!!!
o5. WATER

top five favorite past time:
o1. SMOKE
o2. READ
o3. BLOGGING/WRITING
o4. LISTEN TO CDS
o5. SLEEP

top five IMPORTANT THINGS:
o1. FAITH/GOD
o2. FAMILY
o3. CAREER
o4. LOVE/RELATIONSHIPS
o5. FRIENDS

top five secret wishes:
o1. TO BE SERENADED
o2. BE ON A DESERTED ISLAND
o3. LIVE ON HOUSE BY THE BEACH
o4. SPACE TRAVEL
o5. MEET KEANU REEVES, hehehe

irrational thinking

I just watched "sleepless in seattle" again in the cable tv again. it does bring back young memories. I loved that movie, but i think its quite too good to be true. I mean its so rare, the fact that two people with different worlds would be totally perfect? but what about other things? what am i saying anyway, i am "peace & love" person, i should believe these things. ..but actually no i dont. i mean, come on, its movies, these perfect moments , the perfect kiss, these perfect romantic things happens only in the screen and in books. There always a chance, but its only for those people who deserve it, excluding me. I never experienced such things, because it doesnt happen. i don't know, i just cant imagine myself onto something like that. okay i'm beginning to be too rational again, but in this life..anything can happen, and i'm not sure how things are for me. I believe in love, but maybe for friends and family ..but for somebody else...hmm, i wonder would it be possible for really a perfect moment with a perfect kiss from a perfect guy with an unperfect girl, like me?

fucking bastards

whenever i would browse the tv and there's these shows who discuss cases of rape and child abuse, my heart goes out to the vicitms. i cannot imagine a better state for them. I could almost cry as they relate the pain that they are going through. this guy whom his wife says would stay in the computer room a lot and most of the time, but after while she was suprised that her husband was wanted by the police and FBI because he committed crimes of child molestation in the net including raping his own daughters. then in the news, there's this man who rapes his grand daughter or an uncle who rapes his nephew, which is so fucking sick.

I would always wonder, what's life after them. After the abuse and trauma, how would one cope up with it? Some people can go through life with it but its really a difficult state. I cannot personally relate but everytime issues like this are brought up, i would always think what kind of sick, mad and stupid people would do things like these? why would u rape a kid when u can just get laid with prostitutes... The endless cases of brutally raped women here in manila are mostly unsolved. You just go home one night and something happens and it ends there. Ive always believed its never good to judge people, but to destroy an innocent life, is such a devastating thing.

this charming sunday

Its fiesta SUnday at our place, the filipino tradition of celebration of food na gathering but i did not invite a lot of friends, just anyone who was free, its more of relatives, family and friends kind of thing. But it was a lovely day. Although i did drove a lot. whew! but at least we had fun with pics and karaoke!

Sassy at Starbucks

cousins grace, shen at april

my cousin weng, took this..before the guests arrive..hehe

ruby, bench and me (the designated driver for the whole day)

sassy,my brothers, my cousins goofing around the house

what is so funny?

the young, the wild and the restless, hahaha

the chef, the maid and the driver

collections of beauty

I used to collect lots of things. I mean anything. Before, i have a collection of bags, but not expensive ones. Just different ones, the kind that not everybody uses or displays in public. Some are cheap, and some are little bit expensive but not branded. I have this checkered bag which looks like a Ralph lauren original, but actually it has simple print and a nice style, everybody mistakes it, but actually i only bought it for 50 pesos. I have this flowered printed sling bag, which a lot of my friends find attractive because of its nice print. it was a rare find on a very rare occasion. Most of my bags are either orange colored or red, either way all of them are lively printed. I think bags represent real feminity, i mean for me i cannot go out without a bag to put all my things in, or probably a purse or if im going somwhere far, i have also a bag for that as well as a bag if ever i go hiking. Nowadays, i have this flesh sling bag which i wore to work, because something hand bags or shoulder bags are a nuisance because they fall off my shoulder and sometimes when i walk fast its annnoying. But i have stopped my collection, i have given others with friends and the rest for charity. The bags left are the ones that i cannot give up, they have been with me for long and i have used them in a lots of occasions.


2 years ago, i also collected earrings. well actually, i used to make them for friends, for my mom and for other people. No one would care to use them because i make long and huge earrings out of shells and other things because i have a long hair and it would look nice, but then after a year the fashion industry used big earrings, the antique, shelled ones..I can see some of my friends wear the ones i made or others would even ask me to make one. But i have given it up too, because i had work and it made me busy. I still have the addiction to it, i love earrings. I still collect but i also give them to friends who always would want to have it. I like the big ones and earrings that not most people wear. I also love necklaces, but not the precious ones. I love shell necklaces. But there is one necklace that had a beautiful flower pendant, that i thought was beautiful, but i lost it. That's a problem with me and jewelry i misplace things and end up getting them lost. I also love bracelets, the ones which have charms on them, that has lots of colorful things on it. I have weird tastes in jewelry, that's why my parents and close friends never give me any jewelry present, because if i hate it i would never wear it, they know it even if its an expensive one.


Another collection are my indie mp3s..lots of them. Different weird songs from different weird tastes. other people would never understand it. from alternative to hard core. reggae to pop, slow to fast and the like. sometimes its with the lyrics or sometimes its the tune that makes me fascinated. Even my brothers sometimes find it really weird that i love a certain song, well its hard to explain. probably thats what makes it more attractive to me.

I also love lipsticks. I have lots of them. and i dont care if some men hate it when women wear lipstick. I dont really care, im not opting to give up something just for some guy. if i do have to give up some thing then its would be about other important things. Besides, make-up should not be an issue, relationships are. Anyway, i have different kinds of lipstick for every occasion. I love wearing it, not just to attract any guy but im wearing it because i like it. looking good is not vanity, but obsessing about beauty is vanity. what's wrong with looking nice and pretty, if i like something ill wear it, ill flaunt it. because all these things shall fade, and i when i get old, i wont have these things anymore. Life is a journey and there are lots of things to have, to try and to do, im making a most of it. i dont want to wait until im 8o years old and live in regret.

sharon's badtryp questionnaire

1.Badtrip ka ba ngayon?
~ slight

2. bakit ka naman badtrip?
~ life's like that

3. kumain kana ba?
~ sandwich for dinner.

4. Cnong huli mong naka-usap sa fone knna?
~ monette

5. Aalis/umalis ka ba ngayon?
~ yup went to work

6. San ka naman pupunta/pmunta?
~ pumasok.

7. Ano ang favorite mong chocolates?
~ i love butterfingers..and anything black and sweet

8. mahilig ka ba mag-basa ng libro?
~ OO.

9. may binabasa ka bang book ngayon?
~ nightmares and dreamscapes by stephen king

10. eh magsulat?
~ blogtrips to write crazy thoughts

11. Anong martial arts ang natutunan mo?
~ none

12. Anong favorite food mo?
~ kare-kare, adobo, spanish sardines, dinuguan, lasagna, bopis, crabs, squid, ribs, bbq, calamares, shrimps, indian spicy food, pancit, calzone, soups!!, pizza, etc.

13. nahihirapan ka na ba?
~ oo nakakapagod na

14. eh anong balak mong gawin?
~ eh di cge lang hanggang sa magsawa

15. pero masaya ka naman?
~ OO.

16. mahilig ka ba sa mga musicians/bands?
~ OO.

17. yung minamahal mo ba kapit bahay
nio lang?
~ pucha sana lang

18. ano tingin mo sa survey na toh?
~ PANG WALANG MAGAWA…

19. pano ka talaga magselos?
~ I do it with poise.

20. Pano kung pinayagan ng maging
kayo?
~ salamat sa diyos

21. Cnong last na nag-sermon sayo?
~ parents

22. magpapaka-good girl/boy kana ba?
~ next year

23. Anong kanta pinapakinggan mo
ngayon?
~ i see u ,u see me - the magic numbers

24. Anong iniinom mo ngayon?
~ water

25. eh kinakain?
~ chips

27. namimiss mo na ba ?
~ oo

28. cnong nakikita mong tao ngayon diyan?
~ WALA. .

29. anong ginagawa niya?
~WALA NGA E.

30. nasan ang mommy mo?
~ SA BAHAY…

31. eh kuya mo?
~ opis

32. eh daddy mo?
~ bagay

33. may fax machine ba kayo?
~ OO..

34. may lupa ba kayo sa tagaytay? san
dun?
~ anu ba to

35. anong kulay ng shirt mo ngayon?
~red.

36. may aso ba kayo?
~yup

37. love mo ba yung aso nio?
~ yup

38. anong nickname mo?
~ mylene

39. iyakin ka ba?
~ NDE MASYADO…

40. war freak ka ba?
~ depende sa sitwasyon

41. pero masama ka magalit?
~ madali ako magalit pero madaling mawala

10 of my most "dream" places to visit

When i was young, my grandmother (may she rest in peace), used to tell my parents that i was born to travel and this child would go places, probably because there is a mole in my heel. supertstitious belief it is, but i do hope its true. I have always dreamed of travelling, i mean not just go places but really explore the place, learn something and have fun. It is expensive, but i've always believed money cant buy happiness, if that cliche is indeed true, then with just a low budget, you can go to a place and have a fabulous experience. Sometimes, there would be certain places or specific restaurants in a country or anywhere, that i would love to go to..there's this old pizza restaurant in brazil which was featureed in the tv, but unfortunately i couldnt remember the name. maybe because of the countless times that i would sit and watch the discovery channel, that i also "travel" with it. its a nice feeling to dream to be in those places, i think its a very simple way of satisfying the mind.

here are my ten most dreamiest places!!

1.Vigan

Although i've been living here in the philippines almost all of my life. Vigan, Ilocos Sur still seems to be an eluding place for me. I love old towns. I want to feel the nostalgia since i have this weird belief that i might be an old soul, kinda spooky. It would be a very nostalgic experience to see the remaining orginal ancestral houses, the streets during the spanish regime, and i guess have the simple chance to feel a piece of the past.

2. Lentil Restaurant

I love food. Love to dine anywhere which serves spectacular dishes.I've heard there's a special restaurant in Australia, where they cook really great food.. mediterrenaean and asian cuisine. The intriguing catch is that there are no prices listed in the menu. The customer decides on how much the food deserves to be paid. I find it a little bit weird, but probably more intriguing, i mean if this restaurant relies so much on their cooking, then they must serve really great food i guess.

3. Vortexes

There's a special place in Sedona, Arizona.. a mountain with an amazing rock formation. Vortexes, a science phenomenon i guess. I've learned that this place produces a very special energy amongst its visitors. an unexplained energy, but a good one. some of the locals say, that it does seem to be quite big mystery by nature. I'd love to visit this place and feel, if there is indeed some kind of energy from this place. =)

4. Rennes Le chateau

the place where all the intrigue and mystery came from in the Da Vinci Code. There was a priest here named Sauniere, whom they believed discovered a "treasure", which the researchers believe would turn the religious belief of mankind, upside down, apart from that it does have a series of religious castles near the place, related to its past. I want to see the place, because it has an interesting issue and i want to know what is so special about this place. I do know that it even has a very "special" geometrical measurement, a pentagonal pattern.

5. Louvre Museum

I think the only explanation i can think of why i would want to go there is that.. I love art and this would be one hell of a paradise for me.

6. Rome

well if would get lost in any place in the world, would love to be here. I have read books and Rome is always in either of them. But there are intriguing churches that i would want to visit. A one day tour would not be enough. I think i would always gasp and be mesmerized everytime i see a statue. it would be a breathtaking moment every time for me, im sure.

Church of Santa Maria della Vittoria

chigi chapel

St. Angelo Church

7. Australian Reef

I love the sea, sometimes i get scared with sea animals. But this is one of the wonders of the world, i wouldnt miss it. Its so great, i would love to see the coral reefs.

8. Beach Paradises!!

Palawan Caves - There's a must see underwater cave in Palawan.!!

Pink Sands beach in Bahamas where indeed the sand is pink. no kidding.

My Ulitmate Dream Getaway Beach, Hotel Bora bora, in tahiti

this is Hotel bora, bora the greatest hotel that is placed over the sea. Its like ur sleeping around paradise. This is so nice. I have seen it the Tv, and it so perfect. Plus it has a great underwater safari!!

9. Miramare Castle

I have read a little about Miramare castle in Trieste, Italy. But it has very intriguing history, i would love to spend a night in here. hehe. i think its a fab place.

10. Abruzzo

okay, a close friend sent some pics of some vintage italian towns, its so lovely. can't get enough of it, because i'm a "walking" person. I love walks. not just walks, but around nice places. especially old and small, i dont know but i think i do enjoy it, theres a special feeling to it. and here's one pic of church nowhere, which i still dont know the name of the place. I find the place so special. especially this picture.

mall trip

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well, this is a video i tried on my mobile phone. pretty cool i guess.. this guy was suppose to be a statue, and if u give more coins, he moves robotically. I wonder how much has he earned. hehe anyway, all the kids seem to enjoy it ..so did i.

at Pier One

 

Friday night, i wasnt planning on anything at all..but my crazy friends invited me to go out and so i did.  I met them at Giligan's first then we went to the fort strip, and went to Pier one, where we had our drinks.  It was a perfect night.  I saw bicho again who just came from singapore and we talked about a lot of things.  Joanne was also there, always as gorgeous.   We danced and enjoyed the crazy night.  We also went to BGs, but just for a while.  Then we ate breakfast at Select stop.  I had more beers than i had to, it felt great to have such funny people with u.

 

with mavic

 

time to go

with crazy bicho

tipsy with joanne

with mareng joy

MareHs!!!

 

regina and ida

marehs!

SnaPshoTS

ok.. we are great sinners!.. we went out on a monday night, on a work night, and we dont care. we all had excuses.. one moment to get away from everything else, every stupid thing that mattered a lot.

ida and reg, were such "temptations "and "BI's (bad influences)" hehe.. I was suppose to go to work. well hell with it, there's no work to be done anyway besides its not everyday i see my highschool buddies whom i cared about. we had coffee..cold ones..cold shakes..cakes (lots of cakes!!)..we ate fattening food and so what. we ate pastries at UCC, ate sandwiches and a round of cakes again. We didnt get drunk though, because ida and reg are not "alcholics", so we stayed sober the whole night, talking about anything, sorting issues and crazy stories, haha..it was a happy night.

we fooled around with our pictures and mobile cameras, took crazy poses. we reminisced our highschool days, when we would do crazy stuff and do practical jokes (a bit of a habit of mine). we reminisced our highschool crushes, ones we would talk about before and giggled endlessly. me and regina, reminisced the days when i would ask her to record music for me, and she would tell me about the new alternative songs , and we would sing like rock stars during free time..although Ida was the one who really could sing..Ida would be my mischief partner, we would make fun of our friends and laugh about crazy stories with them. Of course at some point, we did exchange a couple of problems and things that were happening to us lately. I had a nice day apart from the one thing that has been making me realize something. I do like this guy, i mean logically unreasonable, but undoubtfully true. But liking him must mean a lot of consequences and i guess its getting pretty unreasonable. I like him but if it means that im just ruining something really good then probably, i should stop this stupidity. i never meant it to happen nor even wanted it too. he doesnt deserve nor need somebody who just fucks up everything because of some emotions that wasnt supposed to be surfacing. I guess he's right, i am getting too much involved..much less..have to stop.

Dancing Lessons!?

well i had a pretty boring weekend..and a very sleepy sunday. But i did work yesterday, even if it was a holiday which i guess resulted to why i feel bad today. I have dysmenorrhea again..yeah and everytime it happens, im also emotionally compromised. (always!)

My mom gave a brand new mobile phone, Nokia-N70..cute.. nice and very dependable. Funny, im not into mobile phones but i always get new ones... well this one is nice though, it has three things i need.. a direct gmail mailbox, store mp3s and a calendar reminder.. apart from the calling and texting stuff. as well as a very, very nice camera. although, its quite slow at times but who cares, as long as i have a one that works. its a bit bigger than my samsung , but still my samsung was a very good one. this one is more serious. =)

I dont feel so good.. i slept in the afternoon, still im having this uncomfortable feeling. Yesterday, i thought about enrolling myself to dance classes!!.. well i think its nice..not just dancing.. but real dancing i mean the one where u could practice some steps and dance to the salsa, tango or rumba. Ive always always liked that. So probably this weekend, ill be going there..hmm..dancing again...