inception

its been a long time since i blogged, i mean very very long time.. i guess the passion of sharing, has worn me out. things change, people change. i should be sharing many thoughts by now. sometimes, it takes a lot of loneliness to push thoughts into writing, when your outlets become scarce, the hunger to open becomes a desire. i believe boredom comes out from routine, everyday things are the same..makes people crazy, crazy enough to make them do things. well, i havent been to that point yet, god i hope not. i don't know, some people just don't try to understand you well enough to see there are things that cannot be bent. Sometimes, i feel i suffocate like i can't breathe, like my neck is being held too tight, too tight to kill me. Sometimes, i feel so bored i just want to get out and be alone, alone and just don't care about anything. Sometimes i feel, i just want to escape reality and move on, or just feel numb..sometimes you think if life is worth living, or are we all just stuck to this routine life, boring.. and sad.