damn tired

when chaos breaks in, you just want to stay out of it and leave the place. For a while, you just want to stay in your own silent world, and avoid everything that talks or makes noise..only for a while. Its true when people say that the more you ignore something, the more makes it unbearable to sleep at night. Its hard when people refuse to understand your whole being and they are selfish enough to just make their own judgement and they stop listening to you. They put up these stupid facades of trying to be nice, when in reality they don't give a shit about what u really are. You feel all the pressure inside, and sometimes the only way to burst the bubble is to slowly fade away, slowly ignore the world. Suddenly, you realize that the only person who understands and ur only ally, is yourself..not even ur mom, ur relatives, ur friends or even that guy u like most..nobody helps..nothing ever helps. so everyday u wake up the usual day, waiting and nervous, waiting for that every day when u finally leave and nervous because u dont really know what everyday brings. the worst part is when u begin to see that no matter what u do, u know u cannot fill the void of that certain emptiness that u feel.