you'll never find a love like mine

on much much younger years, i remember my dad would always sing to me jazz, blues love songs by frank sinatra, matt monroe, nat king cole, beegees and other singers and bands of the 60s and 70s. one of the songs, i've always loved him to sing was "Misty", originally by frank sinatra. Its such a lovely song and i would never compare it to any pop song or whatever, its sweet and simple, and my dad sings it so well, that whenever there's a chance for him to sing at home, videoke or whenever we watch music lounges, i always request this one. Probably on my wedding day {probably 100 years from now}, i would love him to sing that song to me. I've always been fan of jazz, though i'm not openly into it, its just a personal fave. I mean i'd rather hear jazz on my own and appreciate it, because i'm not really familiar with jazz artists, but only a few of them, but whenever i hear one great jazz song, its quite a satisfaction. I love the sound of the drums, the sax, trumpet, piano, a little bit of some strings etc. I don't know but it relaxes my day and sets into mood, and i just forget about everything i worry about. And i don't care at all, as long as it gets into me, its practically super swell.

While riding on the mrt train and the bus on the way home tonight, ...i had a lot of questions on my mind. I thought how about getting tired of thinking.. I mean.. thinking of other people, like caring about other people, like giving a damn about their lives, like worrying what they would think, like for once giving up on something, ignoring things that aren't even rational, even sharing with other people. Sometimes u would just like to shout "stop" and say "its over". I grew weary, some things are so routine and no matter how effort u give or no matter how much u care for that person, sometimes at the end of it all, ironically, everything u have done or said doesnt count and its even useless. Sometimes, i hate human emotions. I hate it when i like somebody, i hate it because I develop feelings for a certain person, irregardless of everything, and no matter how much i try to control it, it gets the better of me. I so fucking hate it. i hate being girl because its awkward to tell a guy how much u feel for them, and yet u are told its stupid. Why bother caring for someone, who doesn't give a damn about what u think or like? I hate guys because they always have an excuse for being insensitive and accuse women of being demanding. If guys love themselves so much and their stupid notion of being "free", they should probably marry themselves., coz i'd rather be a spinster at this case.
I hate having feelings and i wish to be so numb and indifferent, so i wont have to care for nobody, won't have to hear anyone, or won't have to worry with anyone at all. how amusing life must be for me?..probably satisafaction guaranteed.

But back to reality, life isnt about that. Life would be always be a funfilled journey, full of twists..with so many turns. Its just all about learning to deal with it. So probably, the best thing is to handle it with the head not with the heart, maybe this time, finally let go of things that aren't really real and probably will never be.
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Love this jazz song, by michael bub'le.

You'll never find a love like mine - Michael Bub'le with Laura Pausini

You'll never find, as long as you live
Someone who loves you tender like I do
You'll never find, no matter where you search
Someone who cares about you the way I do

Whoa, I'm not braggin' on myself, baby
But I'm the one who loves you
And there's no one else! No one else!

You'll never find, it'll take the end of all time
Someone to understand you like I do
You'll never find the rhythm, the rhyme
All the magic we shared, just us two

Whoa, I'm not tryin' to make you stay, baby
But I know some how, some day, some way
You are (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss, you're gonna miss my lo-o-ove

Late in the midnight hour, baby (you're gonna miss my lovin')
When it's cold outside (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss, you're gonna miss my lo-o-ove

You'll never find another love like mine
Someone who needs you like I do
You'll never see what you've found in me
You'll keep searching and searching your whole life through

Whoa, I don't wish you no bad luck, baby
But there's no ifs and buts or maybes

(You're gonna) You're gonna miss (miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
I know you're gonna my lovin' (you're gonna miss my lovin')
You're gonna miss, you're gonna miss my lo-o-ove

Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh (you're gonna miss my lovin')
Late in the midnight hour, baby (you're gonna miss my lovin')
When it gets real cold outside (you're gonna miss my lovin')
I know, I know that you are gonna miss my lo-o-ove

Let me tell you that you're gonna miss my lovin'
Yes you will, baby (you're gonna miss my lovin')
When I'm long gone

I know, I know, I know that you are gonna miss .. my love