less of everything

I'm bored. definitely and ultimately bored. this weather is making me feel dumped and useless. I cannot go out and i cannot plan trips. Because I know, there are a lot of more things to care about and to think about.

Maybe there are things in life that happen for no reason at all. No matter how much it always happens to you, how routine and how exactly it circles your way of life, yet until now, you dont know why. For example, emotions fascinate me, no matter how much you control them, sometimes they get the best of you. And yet, even though you always came to a point of having strong feelings for someone, its there. Even if you battle it with logical reasons, the emotion rises and takes over you at the least expected. Sometimes, i mean quite ridiculous it may seem to be, i wonder what life is like for different people. Like the ones who sleep in the streets, how do they cope? what makes them sleep at night without worries? I mean i could see them everyday. For me, I couldn't sleep without any blanket at all, well I'm a blanket-addict...I can sleep without pillows but not without blankets of sort. I can be sorry for them for the rest of my life, but i will never know their struggles and also probably their feelings.

Everynight, before work I always pass this old railroad to work in Buendia, and there are people there, families, children everywhere. Its an unfortunate place but its a home for them. When I see them, its gives me an inspiration to live well, to appreciate things I have and take time with people I love most. Its amazing how most people like me who get to have all these stuff, this education, this job, these friends, these things, who always had more..yet I still complain..but those people who always had less of everything, can sleep soundly in the night and do not care what happens next. Maybe life is not really about having everything or doing everything..maybe Life is about the passion..to live..in spite of everything.