waiting for the sun

 

armed with a lot of thoughts, ill be going to galera this weekend.  well its not big deal here in manila, but it does mean u're off for partying and vacation...to me, its more of another realization of things.  I feel this summer, ive been blessed to spend time with my friends as well as myself, away from it all.  For the last few days, i've always felt like something big is coming up.  I dont know but its like i feel like my life is slowly changing.  I feel like im changing.  Ive been doing things that ive never done before or realized before, and i exactly dont know why.  its like ive been committed to rehabilitate my stupid ways and my beliefs.  i guess i sometimes do try to understand what the hell life is all about. its thrilling to expect the unexpected.  one day ur in this situation and then the next day, its a different one again. 

I still feel confused about something. my heart keeps on battling with my mind.  i know its irrational and completely absurd, but why do i feel this way, why do i care and why do i wait?  Is it worth it..but what for? what does it mean? why this??? If this is so wrong, then why stay this way... im trying  my best so hard  to stall my emotions and focus on other things.  but at the end of the day, there's always one guy i could think of.