conversations between cousins

I spent the palm sunday at QC, my cousin's place.  and it was also my aunt's bday.  I spent the afternoon with my older cousin weng, who was always the closest one to me.  we talk about everything, she knows the first guy i dated to the one im thinking about right now. during college days, she would always go out with me.  we would have this particular wednesday thing, where we would try out different restaurants or bars.  we would try out the food and the ambiance.  then we would have coffee afterwards.  I used to save my allowance just for that.  then she got married and got kids, so our free time isnt that free anymore.  But still, when i had problems or anything, she would hear me out even if i had to call out in the middle of the night.  She would see me cry every heartache i had, and every personal problems i would encounter.  She would always make fun of my favorite phrase "if its not meant to be,then  its not meant to be."  Her husband, would always make fun of my carefree life, but would ridicule my fear of commitments. its not an issue actually, but im working on it, and trying my best to change my doubts towards any relationships.  its not easy though. My cousin thinks so otherwise, she laughs at my stupid thinking,  and would always tell me, that she would love to see me in a serious relationship, so i would know what its like to really care about someone.  well if its meant to be, its meant to be. =)